Rainy Days

I have to tell you something

2008-12-10T18:58:00.000-08:00

I have to tell you something
It may not be important to you but it is to me
I'm really sick of this,
I want to talk to you,
but I'm afraid...
You'll shun me

I have to tell you something
I really like you
You're just too cool
Every move you make captivates me
Mesmerizes me, and
I want to tell you
but I'm afraid
of what you'll say.

I have to tell you something
there are too many subtle hints
I try to pick up, but I'm not sure
if it's my imagination
I want to ask you
but I'm afraid
I'll screw it up

I have to tell you something
I'm in deep over my head
and you're not helping
don't pretend to ignore me,
because I know you're just pretending
I want to be with you
but I'm afraid
that it won't work out

I have to tell you something
You've done it this time,
You got me, and I'm not leaving
I've fallen for you
you're making my head spin
but I'm afraid
that I don't know you as well as I think I do

I have to tell you something
but the words won't come out
I'll give it a try
be sure not to laugh
I'm trying so hard
but I'm afraid
you'll take it as a joke

I have to tell you something
but I'm not going to let you know
what I have waited for forever
I want you to talk to me first
take it lightly, I'm fragile
I want you to tell me
but I'm afraid
you never will

I have to tell you something
aren't you the courageous one?
I suppose you've tried before
and I messed it up
please give me another chance
I want to give it another shot,
but I'm afraid
it's too late

I have to tell you something
I'm undeniably in love with you
and I want to be happy
I'm just myself
and no one else,
just tell me if that's not good enough
You've got me anyways
I really want to tell you everything
but I'm afraid
it's a lie

Mini-Autobiography

2008-12-07T17:29:00.000-08:00

I was born on Halloween, 16 years ago in a hospital in Ohio. My mom says that it was really early in the morning and the doctors left for home and such, which made her really unhappy. I think I was officially born sometime around 7 AM. Not sure, but that's what they've told me. I can honestly say that I can't remember anything of my early childhood, which is kind of sad. My first memory is from when I was 3 years old. It was kind of hazy, I'm not even sure, but I think it was of me in our house back in Ohio sliding on something on wood floors. Great first memory I know, I don't even remember what I was sliding on really, I just remember being three, and the wood floors and the sliding. I have been told that our house in Ohio was huge and that we had a really big back yard. I was also told that my parents planted trees when both me and my sister were born to compare it to how we were growing. Cheesy I know, but that's my parents for you. Unfortunately also when I was three we moved, and left the trees behind. We visited our old house a couple years back and apparently my sister's tree was taken down by the people who had bought the house, don't know about mine. So we moved to the Northwest side of the country, and I can remember much more after moving.

My memories start to pick up again around kindergarten. I remember my first day of school. I had bought this shirt when I was really little. It was gray and had the "Skippy" peanut butter logo on it. At the time it was really big on me. That was what I wore on my first day of kindergarten. I think my hair was really fluffy at the time too. My mom was (and still is) obsessed with this old 70's or 80's hair-do called "feathering" and she would try to do it on my hair countless times. At the time I don't think I really cared. It was really hard for me to make friends as a kid, I remember only one of my friends from kindergarten (I think she was the only one I had though) Her name was Jenna. I only remember her face and name, really nothing about her. As for the grade its self, I suppose kindergarten was pretty easy. I had learned to read at a really young age I think three or four so I didn't have too much issues in the class. I also remember my teacher was a real novice at teaching, and had just graduated or something. I think my Mom had a conflict with her once but I don't remember much.

First grade was about the same pace. I have to be honest though, I was a real cry baby as a child. I would cry over everything and anything. If a teacher told me I couldn't do something, or "couldn't use the RED crayon" XD My mom was a bit freaky about it too. She was a young parent and she thought that I couldn't handle my emotions, although she yelled at me a lot so she was part of the cause of it not to mention, I thought the same about her that she couldn't control her emotions. For her it was anger, for me it was sadness. So I remember entering first grade and there was a paper I was supposed to take home to my parents and fill out. Just the standard "Get to know your child" paper for the teacher. I remember my mom filling it out and putting on the "Anything else I should know about your child" box that I was extremely emotional. As a little kid that really hurt me. I never told my mom about how much it hurt or that it even hurt me, it was one of those times that I just kept my mouth shut on how I was feeling. My mom apologized for this later though, and said she was so sorry and such that she was a bad and inexperienced parent at the time. Otherwise in first grade there wasn't much, I remember this one kid in particular who I had scissor fights with at the back of the classroom. I know, I was a dumb kid, I thought I was so cool with my child-safety scissor fights. Then the other real memory I had was of my first grade teacher and her retarded student behavior system. It was a red card green card thing. There was a holder on the wall with every student's name on it and when when you did something bad she would make you put a red card in your holder, and when you did something good a green. If you had a certain amount of red cards you would go in "time out". For the longest time I prided myself on never having gotten a red card. But then there was this one boy in my class towards the end of the year, who would always get in trouble and every time he got a red card he would put it in my holder. So my teacher counted the cards and ended up giving me time out. I was so upset, you can bet I cried over that one. I tried to explain to her it was this boy, but she didn't believe me, instead she yelled at me and told me to go to time out. I have to say she was just a great teacher, way to know your students.

In second grade I was in a 3rd/2nd grade mixed class, because I was that smart. XD My teacher seemed very nice, but she got pregnant about a month into the school year and hired a sub for the rest of the year. I never really got to know her. I don't remember much about the sub accept that she had a frog tattoo on her back, and was obsessed with frogs. I remember the dumbest things... Since it was a 3/2 mix I made a couple friends in a grade above me. The weird thing is when I went to highschool I saw them again, and they remembered me before I remembered them. Although we never really talked after that. I remember playing on the monkey bars a lot during recess in 2nd and third grade and I got A LOT of blisters. I don't remember anything about third grade at all, except revising this one paper on the overhead. (My teacher would call up students to revise it.) I don't think I had many friends at that time. Or rather none.

4th grade was really where I had my first long term friend. Her name was Kate, I remember I thought she was the coolest person at the time. Her parents were very light on her so they basically let her do what ever she wanted. She had moved from Canada I think. Through her I made other friends that I became very close with. We played a lot of four square and kick ball. Well, let me rephrase that, they played four square. After a four square incident in 3rd grade I had vowed never to play four square again. I had played kick ball for quite a while especially in 3rd grade since I had no friends. The only thing that disturbed me at the time about kickball was that everyone who played it was a guy except me of course. I had the advantage though. My kick was very strong when I played soccer as a kid I was always on defense because I could steal the ball and then kick it really hard, really far. It was probably one of the only things I was good at at the time. That's the other reason why I liked kickball, I could always win. The kickball court and the foursquare court were right next to each other so I could talk to my friends when we were both out and waiting in line. The other thing I did during recess in fourth grade was pick flowers. Our school was right next to a farm, that had a bunch of cat tails and the prickly flowers so I would reach my hand though the fence and pick flowers for fun. I always worried that my hand would get stuck in the fence though it never did. I think I had one other friend in fourth grade, we weren't the best of friends, but she was also really "cool" like Kate, but in a different way. She was probably the most girlie person I have ever met. I thought she was cool because she carried makeup in her lunch box and pretended to be a cheerleader for boys who played baseball during recess. I don't know what was going through my head as a kid. I think it was around this time that I started liking anime and manga. I had liked Pokemon and all that crap when I was really really young, but this was the first time I had actually started realizing it was such. The first manga I ever read was Ranma 1/2. Obscene I know for a fourth grader to be reading that. The other thing that happened in 4th grade was my introduction to web design. My sister had started playing on neopets, and about a year after she joined I joined. She had been taking a tech class in middle school and she had learned really basic HTML I think the most they taught her was how to put a link to a picture. She taught me everything she had learned, so I picked up on web designing really quickly. I designed my user page on neopets, and plenty of other things, I gradually taught myself more HTML and CSS as time went on.

All though out elementary school I was a cry baby. Even in fifth grade, I remember Kate's brother (a third grader at the time) found me in the halls crying once and he asked why I was crying, and I claimed not to be. His response was why are your eyes red then? The whole emotional thing was a weight I carried throughout elementary school. I probably cried at least once a weak at school in fifth grade just over the dumbest things. There's a few things I remember from fifth grade but none of too much significance. In my elementary school it was required to take music as a class, where we would just sing random songs. There were even little concerts of the music class sometimes. I remember at the dress rehearsal of the holiday music concert in fifth grade I was on the top risers. This kid named Ray who was standing next to me pushed me off the edge for no apparent reason. I was bleeding really bad, and had taken quite a fall. I cried, and they thought I was going to need stitches, but I went without. There is a still a scar. Other things I remember from fifth grade is my teacher being on "The Price is Right" and teaching a kid on my bus long division because his teacher couldn't help him. I missed the fifth grade end of the year party because my parents pulled me out of school early to go to Hawaii for summer vacation. Oh, also the significance of the Skippy shirt that I wore on the first day of kindergarten was that it fit me for the longest time, and I wore it like crazy. I haven't if it still fits me, but the last time I wore it was I think 7th grade.

Somewhere between fifth and sixth grade I took a major change. I realized that I was too much like my mother wanted me to be, I felt as if I was just a miniature version of her, I hated it, it was as if she was pulling the strings on everything I did. This was the start of my more rebellious stage, and amazingly the crying stopped. This also triggered my introverted stage, where as before I told everything to my mom or dad or sister, I started keeping my feelings to myself.

Sixth grade was interesting. Moving from elementary school to middle school wasn't too big of a change my friends from fourth and fifth grade stayed the same, but I met a lot of new people. My middle school was divided into "Halls" so I didn't see a lot of my friends who go into different halls then me. My friend Kate luckily was in my hall. I had a big dispute with my parents in forecasting for sixth grade. There were two options, you could either take Art/Technology/Drama or band. I really wanted to do the art/tech/drama option (called wheel). My parents on the other hand wanted me to take band. I had taken piano since I was in 2nd grade and in fifth I quit, so they wanted me to pick up a new instrument. I wanted to take wheel mostly for the tech class. My sister had taken it in middle school and had learned really basic HTML from it, which is probably why I wanted to take it. In the end my parents won of course and I started playing the clarinet in band. I had this infamous teacher that my sister had had, who is a really strict teacher, but I nice person. She was really funny and nice, but really mean as a teacher. I remember once at the end of the year she tried to scare me as a demonstration that we knew her too well. So she was talking about how we were used to her by now and all the sudden she went up behind me and grabbed me. XD It was so funny, luckily I wasn't surprised. Which proved her point that we knew her too well. I really liked her as a teacher. At the end of 6th grade Kate moved to Texas. Although we promised to keep in touch I never said a word to her after we said goodbye. She wasn't a very good influence on me though, she was drawing me in to crappy music too like wannabe-rock pop artists. -shivers- The following year I met the person who I still consider to be my best friend other then my sister that is.

With Kate gone and 7th grade starting I once again had absolutely no friends. I probably had some distant friends but none I considered close. Then in one of my classes I met a new student who had moved over the summer. Her name was Paige, and we instantly became friends because we both loved anime and manga. We both kind of made friends together as well including some other people I am still really good friends with, (names will not be disclosed). As time went on I was getting really really close to all of my friends unlike any I had had in elementary school. The one thing that set me apart from my friends was their obsession with boys. Except Paige really. They would talk about boys a lot, it was their favorite topic of who liked who and such. I did of course like a couple boys in middle school and even now, I just don't care that much I don't love talking about it and I don't obsess over it, is that so wrong? So throughout elementary and middle school I had been introducing myself to many new things. I remember one of my very early teachers telling me that I was awful at writing and the only thing I was really good for was math. Nonetheless as a young child I LOVED writing more than anything, it was my favorite thing to do I would go home a type short stories, or pretend I was a journalist and write about something in the news etc. After what the teacher said, I had a big turn off to writing, and I sort of gave up. It's true that I really am awful at writing, and I realized it. In 7th grade though my Lit teacher had a huge unit on poetry. I made this book of poetry I had written for an assignment, and my teacher read it and said it was really good and the best one she had seen as a teacher. That made me extremely happy, and that's where my love for poetry came from. I love writing it, and I love reading it. My week part in writing is grammar and spelling, but in poetry there is no grammar!

8th grade was a bit of a continuation of 7th grade for me. Except nicer teachers. Although I did hate my 8th grade science teacher. >.< I joined jazz band with my friend in 8th grade which basically made my band teacher love me. The saddest thing about 8th grade was that my friend Paige moved. Which sucked, but I had A LOT of other friends so it worked out. All the while I was growing a lot more independent of my parents and such. That's it really, at the start of 9th grade I made this blog, so you should know everything in detail from then on. XD

The reason I wrote this was because I was thinking about how much I changed from when I was a really little kid, I went from a cry baby to being what I am now. It's kind of strange how much one person can change. My sister calls me heartless now because I'm not sentimental, I don't cry during movies, and I listen to creepy music, and like movies where people die, etc. I have two major fears as you might already know, I am afraid of spiders and enclosed spaces, but I will never be afraid of being alone. Because I have felt it, and I still feel it, I don't talk that much, and really being alone would be no different then being how I am now.

So now you think you know everything about me? Well you don't! XD I left a lot of stuff out, a lot I just didn't want to mention/never talk about and just a lot of random crap. But that's how my life if basically. I hope no one read all that I'm sure your eyes would burn up its so boring. I lied again, I'm so sorry scrapbox/photoblog NEXT time. XD Oh, I almost forgot, Please welcome my new blog-pal XD an awesome plug for Winnie.

Oh one more thing, I'm sorry. I am getting a domain, yay! It's going to officially be registered next weekend, I will be moving this site to a subdomain under it as well as my graphics site. The blog's URL will change but I'll keep all the old posts and such. I will not be operating it on blogger though. I might switch to word press, or I'll just do it manually. I'll put up a moved sign when I have officially moved, and I'll let everyone on my blog roll know the new URL.

Listening to: Into the void, Black Sabbath
Reading: Taming the Shrew, Shakespeare (for school still)
Current Anime: Soul Eater again...
Feeling: Guilty
Internet Tabs: My site, Blogger, Playlist, Deviantart
Obsessing Over: My new domain that I will be getting next week.

Don't you ever get stuck in the sky

2008-11-24T21:02:00.000-08:00

If I killed someone you'd forgive me right? I would love to give anyone a nice punch in the face right now, I'm so frustrated. Did I mention that I hate school? I'm sure you're sick of hearing about how school sucks since basically every other post on this blog is. SCHOOL SUCKS! XD It's true, I'm obviously not lying. School is hell I swear by it. Teachers are the devil. Well some of them at least. (no offense to any teachers out there). Okay, well I don't feel bad for any high school Chemistry teachers, they all suck. (Sorry once again, but I'm telling the truth) Chemistry teachers have issues. Mainly mine. My Chemistry teacher is a freaky freak scary bitch woman. No kidding.You can not understand the hate I have for her. It is impossible to get an "A" in her class. I'm not joking, No one in any of her classes have an "A". Even the smartest kids have "B's" at best. She has a screwed up grading system. It's really pissing me off. This will definitely scar my view of Chemistry, and I will never take it again. -scratches AP Chem of junior year class list- Hell yeah, I'm taking Physics, screw Chem. I have decided I'm going to switch to a different Chemistry class next semester. I can't stand her anymore. Only 9 more weeks until next semester. =D Oh yeah, I'm looking forward to pitching that class.

I have a newish obsession. Well plural obsessions that is. I really really really want tablet. I made a Deviantart account in anticipation for when I get it. Not that there is a set time, but I will get it sometime. I know these things. 0_0 I would hope for it as a holiday gift but I got A TON of crap for my birthday this year. Seriously my parents never get me as much gifts as they did this year for my birthday. All of my past birthday gifts combined might equal what I got. My sister got me a DS, as I've probably already said. My parents got me GH (which I've had since summer, but they agreed it would count towards my birthday), The complete set of Invader Zim on DVD, a game for my DS, and hand warmers. (That are pretty awesome by the way). Isn't that amazing?! This makes my dream for tablet impossible though. My other obsession is to get either the new GH, or Rock Band. My mom came up with a plan to possibly get me Rock Band. She said I should by the full band package for Rock Band 1, and then buy just the game Disc for Rock Band 2. It's kind of sad that that is less money then buying the full Rock Band 2 band set. She said that she'd consider it if I got all "A's" on my next progress report. DAMN YOU CHEMISTRY TEACHER!!!! Feel my pain now...

As for my music interests, all is the same although I have been looking in to some of System of a Down's older albums their self titled album, and Steal This Album. Especially the self titled one. I really like some of their older stuff, it's more raw. XDD Don't know what compelled me to say that. Well it's more hardcore then their newer stuff if you ask me. I really have taken a liking to the songs CUBErt, Suggestions, and Peephole. (Which is where the title of this entry came from). Anyways, I very much recommend looking into it if you haven't tried some of their older songs. The guitar parts might not be as good and thought out, but I do like the lyrics their really interesting. Also in the way of music, I changed up the playlist again, here's the new track list:

1. Rage Against the Machine - Township Rebellion
2. System of a Down - Peephole
3. Metallica - All Nightmare Long
4. Nirvana - About a Girl
5. Korn - Thoughtless
6. Audioslave - Moth
7. Slipknot - Vermilion Part 2
8. Maximum the Hormone - Koi No Mega Lover

I've been watching my fair share of movies as well. This weekend my sister referred me to a movie that she watched with her new best friends from college. T_T Anyways, it was called Equilibrium. It had Christian Bale in it (aka: Batman). He did an okay job of acting but I swear have you seen his eyebrows???!!! You could kill someone with them they're huge. We all agreed Keanu Reeves would have done a better job at the role. This might be because me, my sister and my mom all love him but that's beside that point, he could have pwned that role. On with the point, the movie was about This guy who was living in a society where it was a crime to have emotions. Basically they had created a society where everyone takes drugs that remove all human emotion. So the main character's job at first is to kill anyone who doesn't take their drugs and has emotions. He destroys anything that promote emotions like happiness. I personally thought it was an interesting concept but it could have been better played out. Anyways, he stops taking his drugs one day, and he's trying to destroy "father" which is the creator of the society etc etc... Because he realizes that people need emotions, and that's what defines them. Once again interesting concept. It would have been better with more plot though. It was an action shoot-'em-up movie, which is my favorite type, but really I don't care for that without a clearly defined and somewhat complex plot. Anyways, overall it was an ok movie. It was sort of Matrix style (which is why Keanu would rock the part), but it wasn't close to as good plot wise. Nice action though. =D I've watched plenty of other movies recently, but that's the only one I dubbed worth mentioning here. (My mom loves to rent small children movies). -Goes into fetal position crying in fear of kid movies-

So, because I'm awesome and I appreciate those who read my blog I have decided to make a list of why my blog is awesome, and you should read it.

Why this Blog is awesome and you should read it:

1. I'm awesome.
2. You worship me.
3. You want to stalk me.
4. I have good taste in music and movies.
5. I sometimes write reviews for movies, books, or animanga here for you to read.
6. I introduce you to amazing and epic things around the internet like this video.
7. I'll give you a muffin if you actually read my posts. =3
8. I give you sneak previews to things never before seen on my site (that are up coming) like this and this.
9. I like corn nuts.
10. Um, yeah...

The video My sister sent me, it's a spoof off of the new movie The Number 23. It's so funny, I almost died laughing. Watch the preview for the movie if you have not seen it yet, then watch the video after. LOL! Here's another funny trailer by them, it's a spoof off of Twilight. Yes, screw Twilight!!! XD -hates it- Also, the previews are secretive, premades for my site that will be posted once the Revamp is over which will hopefully be this week, or in the coming weeks. Oh by the way please don't stalk me, it was a joke, and egotistical joke which doesn't fit my personality. Anyways, that's all for now from me. HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! It's another 3 days off of school, yay! I'll try to post a scrapbox blog next time. Or a photo blog. Not photos of me though, never! 0_0 Unless someday I make a myspace or facebook which won't be soon. Although I did get a nice to hair cut last Friday. =D Anyways, bye from me happy thanksgiving again.

Listening to: Dive, Nirvana
Reading: Taming the Shrew, Shakespeare (for school)
Current Anime: finished Beck a while back.
Feeling: Mad at my Chemistry teacher.
Internet Tabs: My site, Rainy Days
Obsessing Over: Tablet/GH/Rock Band

Found One...

2008-11-04T07:56:00.000-08:00

Finally found a quiz that has somewhat normal questions:

Basics:
Name: Rinku
DOB: 10/31
Birthplace: Ohio, U.S.
Current location: Lurking in the underworld
Eye color: Gray
Hair Color: Blond
Height: I'm guessing like 5'8" something like that.
Heritage: Russian, Swedish and some other stuff.
Piercings: None, (hates piercings)
Tattoos: None.

Favorite:
Band/Singer: Too many, you should all know my favorite bands by now anyways.
Song: Currently - Dreaming, SOAD
Genre of Music: Hard Rock \m/
Color(s): Red
TV show(s): Invader Zim
Movie(s): The Matrix, V for Vendetta
Food: Skyline Chili
Store: Not really sure, any book store really.
Number: If I didn't say 7 here I'd have a mob of band kids attacking me.
Drink: Code Red Mountain Dew
Clothing Brand: None really.
Shoe Brand: Converse!
Animal: Fox
Pizza topping: Cheese
Season: Winter
Month: February
Holiday: Any day I get off of school (veterans day, pres. day, etc.)
Flower: Lily

This or That:
Sunny or rainy: Rainy
Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla
Fruit or veggie: Fruit
Night or day: Night
Sour or sweet: Sweet
Love or money: Love
Phone or in person: In person
Poor & happy or rich & miserable: Poor and Happy
Looks or personality: PERSONALITY
Coffee or tea: Tea
Hot or cold: Cold

Your:
Goal for this year: Get through school without killing myself.
Most missed memory: 8th Grade in general
Best physical feature: ..... Not sure
First thought waking up: -tired-

Future:
Do you wanna get married: Maybe, not sure yet.
Do you wanna have kids: Maybe, not sure yet.
If so, how many: If I have kids only one.
Do you wanna go to college: Hell yes.
What do you want to be: Not sure.

Do You:
Dance in the rain: No
Smoke: Ew, No.
Drink: No
Shower daily: Yes.
Like thunderstorms: Yes.
Curse: Um, I suppose so.
Sing: Yeah, I sing all the time. Supposedly I have a good voice. (I'm not sure whether I agree with that though)
Play an instrument: Saxophone is sexy.
Think you are good looking: That's a matter of a opinion.
Get along with your parents: Not most of the time

Other Questions:
Can you whistle: Yes
Right or left handed: Right
Your bedtime: I don't really have one, I stay up and do whatever...
Biggest fear: Spiders
3 things you can't live without: Computer, Ipod, Skyline Chili
Color of your room: White, I think... It could be tinted a different color, or off-white.
Siblings: 1 Sister.
Middle name: Don't have one. XD
Pets: 2 cats, 1 annoying bird, I had a gerbil but he died this morning. ;_;
Nicknames: Mesh, Jet.
For or against gay marriage: I have gay friends, so I guess so for their sake.
Thoughts on abortion: Undecided.
If you could be anywhere right now where would you be: Not Here.
Do you wear contacts/glasses: Neither
Are you afraid of the dark: No.

Oh, that was epic. I am really sad the my gerbil died, I had him for four years or so. So yeah, it's all true, I will be posting more of these quizzes later, they are so much fun *gigglesnort* - hahaha, I stole that from Sali. Hope you all have a better day than I'm having! ~ Wait, wait I've got another quiz, (stole this from Pup). XD

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10 Minute Survey

1. Start Time: 8:55
2. Name: Rinku
4. Astrology sign: Like Zodiac? Squrpio
5. Gender: Female
6. Hair color: Blond
8. Eye color: Gray
10. Favorite color: Red
11. Glasses: No
13. Tattoos: No
14. Hometown: Death - Mwaaaahahahaha!
15. Single or taken: Single
16. Siblings names: Green (alias)

HAVE YOU EVER...
17. Cut your own hair? Yes.
18. Did something in the past month that you will regret? Yes.
20. Skipped school? Yes.
22. Bungee jumped? Yes.
24. Punched someone? Yes.
25. Cheated on a test? No.
26. Been arrested? No.
27. Broken into someone's house? No.
30. Been rejected? No.
31. Been to a funeral? No.
32. Used a lighter? Yes.
33. Been on stage? Yes.

FAVORITE...
34. Season: Winter
35. Food: Skyline Chili
36. Ice cream flavor: Mint...
37. School subject(s): Math
38. Candy: Milky Way
39. Breakfast cereal: I hate cereal
40. Favorite band(s)?: Damn, stop asking this question stupid quizzes, I have too many.
41. Book: Abhorsen, Garth Nix
42. Movie: Matrix, V for Vendetta
43. Song: Dreaming, SOAD
44. Park: Don't have one.
46. Place: My room.
47. Sport to watch on TV: Football, nothing like men tackling each other over brown leather.
50. Letter(s): X
51. Favorite fast food restaurant: Taco Bell. (I hate fast food other than Taco Bell).
52. Disney Princess: Ew.
53. TV station: Food Network. XDDDDDDDDD
54. Name for a son: Not sure.
55. Name for a daughter: Lain

DO YOU PREFER...
56. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla
57. Alcohol or drugs? Neither.
58. Long relationships or one night stands? Long Term.
59. Dogs or cats? Cats.
60. Scary movies or comedies? I love scary movies.
61. Short or long hair? Short
62. Croutons or bacon bits? Croutons.

FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO MIND...
64. Mexicans: My friend whose name starts with an "A" (Names will not be mentioned on this blog unless I feel a need for revenge).
65. School: Hell.
67. Cows: Grass.
68. Canada: Phantom of the Opera.
69. Mouse: My gerbil ;_;
70. Hand: Fingers.

THE PAST 3 DAYS, HAVE YOU...
71. Talked on the phone? Yes.
72. Watched a movie? Yes.
73. Cried? Yes.
74. Smoked? No.
75. Drank a glass of water? Yes.
76. Done Drugs? No.
77. Read a book or magazine? Yes.
78. Watched TV? Yes.
79. Looked in the mirror? Yes.
80. Taken a shower? Yes.
81. Taken picture? No.
82. Listened to music? YES!!!!!
83. Told someone you love them? No.
84. End time: 9:05

Listening to: Ruin, Lamb of God
Reading: The Black Tatatoo, Sam Enthoven
Current Anime: Soul Eater
Feeling: Rushed (over homework)
Internet Tabs: Playlist, Blogger
Obsessing Over: IZ on DVD!

Shitty Personality Test

2008-10-29T16:20:00.000-07:00

I took a personality test. Here are my results:

I'm an introvert. 0_0 Ha ha, I knew that but 100%?? Wow, I really do have a fear of people. Well, I just wanted to post this, I will post again after my birthday which is Friday. I have lots of updates on random things I've been doing, and I'll actually have time to talk about it because band ends this week.

Listening to: Silver, Nirvana
Reading: The Black Tatatoo, Sam Enthoven
Current Anime: Soul Eater
Feeling: Busy
Internet Tabs: Google (for homework), stupid personality test site, Blogger, Playlist
Obsessing Over: My DS. XDD

Another Animanga Update

2008-10-09T01:34:00.000-07:00

Hello again I'm here to talk about some more anime and manga I've recently been reading/watching. Feel free to send me suggestions, I'm always open to a new series. Alright, here we go again.

1)) I was at a small beach-side book store in late summer and found they had a very small manga section, not expecting to find anything instead I saw that behold another .hack manga series had come out. Being a .hack fan I probably would have bought it anyways, but I looked at .hack//GU+ and remembered my friend had bought the corresponding game not to long ago, she was trying to get me to buy it because she said it was really fun and much better then the old .hack games. At the time I didn't have much money though. Therefore when I saw GU+ I bought the first volume. I knew the main character was Haseo, who is awesome so I figured it wouldn't be too bad. I finished the series a few weeks ago, it wasn't too bad, probably not as good as Legend of Twilight, but still not bad. Once again it was another three volume series that pissed me off. I hate .hack manga for only having 3 books per series. -cries- none the less, if you're a .hack fan you should definitely check it out it's probably a bit different from GU (the game) Probably worse that is, but whatever.

2)) If you're not a girl skip the next three. No offense, but unless you're a very feminine guy you won't like these. Of course they are shoujo anime! Alright, this one I saw quite a while ago sometime early summer/the end of last year. I'm probably the last person to watch it though since it's so popular. The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi is about a girl who is very different and sort of an outcast at her school because more than anything she feels the world is boring and would like to encounter aliens, espers, or time travelers. It turns out that she doesn't even know they are among her, all the members of the SOS Brigade (her club) are such. All except for Kyon that is. He has to put up with them telling him but keeping it a secrete from Haruhi. It's a cute anime, very entertaining. My sister said she tried to watch it once but couldn't because she hated Haruhi so much. I think it's pretty funny I especially like Kyon, Koizumi, and Yuki. The downside to this series was that it's pretty short, and there isn't much plot development. **Also the episodes are very out of order you have to look up the actual order to watch the series correctly.

3)) More shoujo, oh joy. So there is one series that I really do love, I even based my graphics site's layout on the anime. Lovely Complex is about an average High school girl Risa Koizumi. Her only quirk is that she's extremely tall and feels that because of it she'll never date anyone shorter than her. She meets Otani an abnormally short kid in her class and they instantly become friends and comedy partners. Soon though Risa realizes that she's actually falling in love with Otani. The problem is he's much shorter and he's extremely dense when it comes to dropping hints. I really love this one, it's just too cute. XDD I love the characters and the theme, maybe it's just me though... I totally recommend it to someone who's looking for drama and Shoujo.

4)) The most recent thing I have been watching is yet another Shoujo... haha, this is so rare for me. It's really a more mature anime for high school/college girls if you ask me. Nana is an anime that follows the story of two girls. (Who are both named Nana). Nana Osaki sung in a band in her old town and is moving to tokyo to try and make it famous. Nana Komatsu is also moving to Tokyo to reunite with her boyfriend who had become a long distance relationship. The anime picks up really fast, and is fun to watch. The music from it is some what entertaining. The only thing I really don't like is how stupid the main character is. I hate Komatsu Nana, (aka: Hachi). She's such an idiot who falls in love with every guy she sees. She's really spoiled too. Nonetheless, the anime's not too bad, I'd have to say my favorite character is Nobu, he has been since I began watching. I'm currently on episode 33, and I'm not sure how much more I want to watch of it. I would say why, but it's a major spoiler. It was fun while it lasted though.

5)) No more Shoujo! >.> <.< Ok, so the next anime I started watching a little while ago I haven't quite finished yet unfortunately. (Only because I haven't had time). Serial Experiments Lain is super serious. It sends you deep into thought and in my opinion has a bit of a hidden meaning to it. It "deals directly with the definition of reality, which makes its complex plot difficult to summarize." So says Wikipedia. Honestly if I tried to explain it would totally butcher the concept of the whole thing. Look it up somewhere for a summary.... So as for my review I do really like the series (I'm almost done with it). It's quite serious and you have to think to get what's going on in the anime. The thing I dislike most about it is the animation it's quite an old series, so the animation is really awful in my opinion, but eventually you get used to it I guess. A great anime in general I totally recommend it.

6)) Another manga series I have started reading is Yozakura Quartet I really like the art and the concept of the manga, it's really unique. Yozakura means to view cherry blossoms at night, so you're probably like wtf, but just trust me on this. XD It's about four kids, Hime, Aoi, Kotoha, and Akina. Hime is super strong, Aoi can read minds, and Kotoha can make things appear just by saying the word. Akina is just a normal boy. Together they try and make the town a better place. I really like the unique idea of this manga. You might be thinking superheroes, but it's really not like that. The thing that makes me really upset is that there are barely any volumes out, even in Japan! The most I've been able to find it two. The one group that was scanlating it became inactive too. =[ I really hope the series continues soon though I can't wait for more plot.

So that's all I've got for updates right now. There has been much more that I've been reading or watching, but I tried to pick the better of them. By the way, I have an MAL account (as stated in my last blog post) so if you really want more updates feel free to visit my manga or anime list. I will still post animanga updates here of course that are in detail. And here's this nifty signature thing That shows my updates: XD

Side Note: Sorry I have been so incredibly busy recently. I was going to make this post a long time ago (right after the last one) but never got around to it. I have so much homework, I promise they're will be another more ranting about internet post coming soon. I need my sleep though.

Blackbird Singing in the Dead of Night

2008-09-26T17:59:00.000-07:00

Goddammit I've changed. I can look at posts from October of last year and laugh about how I talked about how my day was, how I spelled cliche wrong and how I liked soft rock. I know that I change each year, but never that much. The ignorant bliss of a freshman I guess. Anyways, I have made small updates to the blog and layout, not so much in content though as you can see. I tweaked the layout in small ways that probably none of you will notice, and I added a new playlist! The old one was getting well... old. Here's the new track list!:

1. Avenged Sevenfold - Gunslinger
2. Disturbed - Ten Thousand Fists
3. Metallica - Bleeding Me
4. Muse - Time is Running Out
5. Dragonforce - Valley of the Damned
6. My Chemical Romance - The Sharpest of Lives
7. Korn - Coming Undone
8. The Rolling Stones - Paint it Black
9. System of a Down - Question!

Unfortunately this playlist doesn't have any Japanese songs. I did just also update my playlist on GaiaOnline, and that has more variety. I have also been quite busy with my website, not to mention my very first fanlisting which I command you to join, I don't care if your a fan of Psyren JOIN!!!! Ok, I lied rule #1 is you must be a fan to join, so read it, love it, then join. Oh, yes, I've also been working on my fanlisting collective which is still in the works, I hope to have it up this month or next. I'm also currently working on a layout (a pre-made for my site) which is featuring DANTE! *0* Another more internet geared update is that I joined MAL. (The link takes you directly to my profile), so request to be my friend if you have an account. Most recently I've been checking my e-mails constantly like some freak, it's almost scary I feel like I'm going to get an e-mail every two seconds from some one. I hate when I get spammed though I got spammed by someone in the Netherlands and some U.S. kids, (Yahoo shows the IP addresses on e-mails). It's frustrating to get e-mails like that, especially when you look at your e-mails every two seconds. Damn you spammers!

Also recently I became very very very upset over events in real life, which is beyond my limit to talk about. That being said, I really made this blog in frustration, I'm not the happiest person in the world, so usually I like to post annoying rants here when I'm unhappy. There are of course certain topics which I will never talk about on this blog, or to anyone or anything. This is one of the topics just giving you all a heads up, right now I feel depressed. Wow, the atmosphere just changed from casual to very serious... XD Basically lets just say I feel hurt right now and a bit heart broken. And please don't say "If your heart was really broken you'd be dead," I know, but that doesn't make me feel better.

Earlier today I went home sick from school. This morning in Chemistry I felt really really dazed and out-of-it. I don't know how to describe it, I felt dizzy and unfocused. It felt like I was going to pass out or something. We were taking notes and I couldn't even focus on that, I could barely write my words right. Luckily I didn't but I had to go home after second period I was mostly just really tired. I slept from 11:00 A.M. to 4:00 P.M., it was insane. The worst part is I don't feel too much better. I hope this isn't mental. I'm really hoping that by tomorrow morning I'm feeling better, I have an all-day band competition which I HAVE TO GO TO. I'd just about kill myself if I didn't go. I probably just need to sleep more, I haven't been sleeping that much at night anymore...

So my sister went off to college last week. I was surprised I wasn't half as sad as I thought I would be, in fact I wasn't really sad at all. Is that strange? I have an inhumanly strong bond with my sister and yet I wasn't sad to see her leave, I just said goodbye... It was strange of course I miss her, but I know she's doing fine. I talk to her just about every day through phone and e-mail. My mom sent her a package full of rice krispies this morning. XDD

A couple weeks ago I went to the drive-in. There's one that's like an hour or two drive from my house. It's really cool since there are so few left. They were doing some old tradition by playing Grease as the first movie. I have to say, it's not my favorite movie of all time. T_T Nonetheless I sat through it. The second movie (the reason we went) was Tropic Thunder. It's pretty new, but anyways, it was really funny. A little crude but really funny. Just remember, TiVo makes everything better. XD

I just have to say... My friend is going to a Metallica concert, I was deathly jealous, but then, she offered to get me a shirt. I LOVE HER. <3

I will be posting again soon with a rant on the glories of firefox add-ons and themes as well as an animanga update, stay tuned!

Listening to: Blackbird, The Beatles
Reading: Kite Runner, Khaled Hosseini
Current Anime: Serial Experiments Lain
Feeling: Depressed
Internet Tabs: Site, Blog, Playlist, Gaia, Yahoo,
Obsessing Over: Sleep

A small look into my mind

2008-08-11T23:19:00.000-07:00

On this most dark evening, I sit at my desk in front of a computer. I reach for my stereo remote, and turn on the radio. The song playing is loud and up-beat, it does not fit my mood so I turn it down yet leaving it on for some quiet background noise. I adjust my chair a bit so I am closer to the key board. And yet nothing comes to me. To distract me from this mental blankness, I walk over to the door to see anyone is still awake. The entire floor is pitch black, the house is quiet and the only sense of life is the small light flooding through the cracks of my bed room door. I return to my room and sit at my desk chair once again. Not thinking, I spin around in the chair a couple times until I feel dizzy. I stop the spinning motion with my foot and immediately the surroundings of the room look shaky. After a couple seconds of this my vision returns to it's normal state and I turn once again to the computer. Then, finally a thought comes to me, a thought that I have rediscovered and rediscovered over and over again.

So here I sit wishing that life is a game. Some one spent so much time designing this delicate world which is nothing but a game. Some random person or thing is controlling me with a joystick. They watch and laugh every time I feel miserable, every time I fail a test, every time I yell at someone. Of course I know this is just not possible, because if it was infact a game I would have already lost. Nonetheless, if this was infact a game, to the one who is behind the joystick, why are you doing this to me? Please stop. I'm not happy. I hate thinking so much, and I hate my fear of other people or should I say "other players". Have I lost the game yet?

The music on the radio changes songs, and the new song is a sappy love song. I am disgusted, I turn off the radio and found I have lost my train of thought. Although it is no loss since that topic is a bit worn out. I take a deep breath and lay down on the ground to get more thought flowing.

Someone I know and I feel is one of the few people close to me, will be leaving my small world soon. I will of course see them again, but it's hard. Not to mention they have been quite irritable lately, it makes me very sad in the few moments I have left with them, I almost feel like I am being snubbed. Although I don't blame them for doing such since no one has ever really seemed to like me. I notice how people change, it's very blunt and obvious for me to notice. When I was little I would always tell my mom I would never change my personality. My mom seemed upset that my sister was "growing up" and becoming a "teenager" in terms of attitude. I noticed this change, but wasn't upset by it like my mother. Although since I had realized she was unhappy I promised I would never change. The one person I never notice change in was myself. I admit, I know I've changed a lot, but I can't gauge it. I can't remember the in-between phase. I can barely imagine what I was like before this change. I can barely even notice it. I will read back in my old journals, or heck even on the old blogs, and think. "What the fuck was I on?" Of course I have no journal now, only this blog. It really freaks me out. Who the hell am I? Me, the person who will never be someone else, me the one who looks down upon those who want to be someone else. I don't know who I was then. And who knows I'll look back on this in a couple of years, and call myself a crazy idiot, and I can imagine that's what anyone who's reading this will think. Damn I can ramble.

I hear a disturbance coming from outside my room, at first I think it is one of my family members waking up, but as I go to check what it is, it is only my cat sharpening his claws on the wood bench in the hallway. When I return to the room, I turn on the radio once again hoping this time to hear something a bit less revolting. There is a mild song on which I would categorize "floating nothingness". Satisfied, I leave it on at a low volume. In desperation to get away from thinking any more I check a couple of sites to see if any friends are on. Of course there are none. It is 12:11 AM where I live. Where are those friends, in my hour of need? :D Actually if I talked to any of my friends I would never really "TALK" to them, it would just distract me from my sulking. A small part of talk I never discuss with anyone came to my mind.

You're probably the one person that I will never know what you think of me. We're not even friends, yet I talk to you sometimes, small discussions. After my last display of unhappiness, I can't imagine what you think of me. Or even if you saw it. Although it was pretty obvious. I'm not quite sure if I'll ever even talk to you again. Most likely not, yet I hope I do. I don't know you, and you don't really know me, but oh well. I will hope to talk to you once again on another day.

Now bored with the thought of thinking, <- (lol) I set my head down on the desk, and turn off the computer. Let the thunder roll, and slowly fell asleep. Too much thinking... yes, too much, makes me tired.

Sorry for making you read through that, it was horrible I know. Just a very very very very very small look inside my mind. Hellz yes, I'm a freak.

Listening to: Radio
Reading: Shade's Children, Garth Nix
Current Anime: Just watched the end of Cowboy Bebop
Feeling: Do I have to say?
Internet Tabs: Rainy days
Obsessing Over: None

On a small but happy side note: Garth Nix is going to write two more books to the Abhorsen series. Or so it says on his website. Or so my sister says. Anyways, one is apparently a prequel, the other is a sequel. I can't wait! Not to mention: GARTH IS GOING TO NY FOR A BOOK SIGNING. I WISH I COULD BE THERE!!! *sigh*

b0r3d

2008-07-09T17:14:00.001-07:00

Yes, I'm very bored, very bored. So I came to ramble... My attention span seems to be getting smaller and smaller for some reason. I can't focus on what I'm doing anymore. I've seriously tried to design a layout at least three times, and each was a miserable failure. Then I wrote a tutorial on brushes a long time ago, and I can't seem to finish it. I'm thinking too hard! XD So anyways, I can't even focus on doing homework anymore. I'll start one thing then drift into doing another, it's dreadful. *Sigh* I honestly hope this phase ends soon. It's hard enough focusing on this without looking at other web pages. My god I've been to about three other ones just while typing this.... Must focus... 0_0 So anyways, I have been reading a new manga series called Psyren. My sister was the one who liked it, and she told me to read it. It was awesome! YOU MUST READ IT NOW! If you like Shonen manga you'll love Psyren. Then I also watched the entire anime of Code Geass, (although it still comes out weekly) which was really good, but everyone in the whole anime is evil, I'm not kidding. Toward the beginning of the second season I decided that Lelouch is good he just is using bad techniques to fight Britannia. I'm usually not into giant robot animes, but this one's pretty sweet. (I'm not into the Gundam thing, but then again I've never seen it). Ok, I'm having a really hard time focusing on writing this *stares wide eyed at the computer screen* Ah! Oh my god, I'm going blind! *cough*
Anyways, I have a new obsession, it's called Devil May Cry! Yes, Dante is so cool! I'm playing the first game right now. The fighting mode is awesome and stuff, but man the scrolling kills. >.< I'm gonna take a guess the other games are a bit more in depth plot wise. So other then playing video games, I have actually been doing other stuff. Been hanging out on gaia, and I made a forum for my guild so lots of fun over there. Otherwise I have been doing a various amount of other things although I forget what those are. XD Urm... been doing homework, I went shopping too. Although I didn't buy anything...
My mom bought me an Itunes gift card yesterday for $25 out of no where it was really nice of her, but I half decided I wanted to start downloading music illegally from the internet. Instead I used the whole card, still not satisfied with my poor selection of music on my Ipod. There is just so much I want to download. I couldn't refrain myself from getting a couple shows from I tunes as well. I got Doctor Who which they've newly added to Itunes, and the sixth episode of Death Note. Why? Because L goes "bang" in that one! ~ Although I hate L's English dubbed voice they only had the dubbed version. They also have added Naruto and Bleach to Itunes which is really cool although they need more Jpop and Jrock songs. I should probably get Limewrie, but my mom would freak out saying it's going to infest our computers with viruses, (although I'm sure that computer already has viruses it runs -that- slow). So if I ever have the need to get free music I have to do it the old fashion way, the .mp3 file way.
In other news, my favorite thing in the world is coming up soon, school and band. School being worse... This Marching Band season I'm doing Tenor of course as I've completely dropped Clarinet. - It's like a freaking stick really. So yeah school is going to be hectic for me in the struggle to get all A's. Not to mention I'm taking an AP class this year, AP Government, and I'll have a lot more AP classes next year. The sad part is I probably won't have as much time to do graphics, hang out at the guild or basically do anything online. Such is life I guess... Plus I'm supposed to do a club this year according to my parents yeah Key club or something like that, only because it looks good for colleges. If you ask me Band is enough not to mention in my junior year I have to take both Art 1 and Art 2 because the California schools require one full credit (a year) worth of art classes. I can't imagine I'll be going to a California school, but it's best to keep my options open I guess. Why do I care? That's a great question, I care because my sister's going to college so I get a glimpse of the shock that's coming before it comes I guess
Anyways, on to happier topics, I have been watching many movies recently the best by far was Batman. Heath Ledger was the perfect Joker may I just say. Then not to mention I was dragged to see some other movies with my mom and sister. None were very good, I actually thought Hancock was going to be better then it was, but the plot seriously had issues. It just couldn't focus on one story line at a time my god. I'll always be a bit of a Will Smith Fan after Irobot and I am Legend. Those were really good!
Anyways, I've run out of things to say, summer sucks, school sucks more. I must go to Saxophone lessons... Blah Blah Blah.

Listening to: Death Note end 2, Zetsubou Billy
Reading: Shade's Children, Garth Nix - the best author ever
Current Anime: Waiting for the Next Code Geass
Feeling: Bored
Internet Tabs: Guild, Forums, Gaia, My site, Blogger, Rainy Days, Playlist.com
Obsessing Over: Free Downloadable Fire Fox add-ons.

Batman

2008-06-27T16:23:00.001-07:00

OMFG, I CAN NOT WAIT!:

hummmmm....

2008-06-18T19:17:00.000-07:00

For some strange reason I felt the urge to post here. Not quite sure why since usually I don't post too often. I think it's because tomorrow I have to go back to work... No, I don't have a job, but every summer I do school work. See I don't have a REAL summer like all the other kids, nope, I do school work. EVERY summer I do a work book on the math for next year. For example next year I will be taking Advanced Algebra 2, so this summer I am doing a work book on Alg. 2 and Trig. Exciting right? -_- I'm sort of used to it by now... It used to be that my parents would get me some nice thing at the end of the summer if both me and my sister did our work books. They were always sony products because we have sony thing that makes them really cheap. (This is how we got our Playstation 2.) Yet now they don't get us anything it's just an expectation. Although my sister isn't doing one this time because next year she's going to college. Not to mention this summer I will be taking two school classes, (P.E. and health). Yes, I know you are wondering how can you take P.E. over the summer. It's dumb you have to do some stuff and get signatures saying you did them. The one I signed up for was Tennis so I have to play tennis a lot this summer. Then I have to take Health online. The only reason I'm doing them over the summer is because they are required classes and I want to use my elective credit for AP Government next year. Why I want to take AP Government I don't even want to guess... Anyways getting back to the point I'll be working hard over the summer too. In my spare time I'll be working on graphics and various other things on my computer. Of course I won't spend the whole summer on the computer then I'd be a freakish zombie. 0_o Apparently my parents anniversary is coming up, and they say they want to go to the beach and leave me and my sister at the house for a couple days, or at least my mom says that. XD So I'll probably take a "break" from homework while they're gone. =D I've been having an ok couple of days, they have improved since last week for sure, just hanging out and spending time on the computer. I had to go into the doctor’s office to get a shot, (one of those ones that you get every 10 years). I'm not afraid of needles, but some of my friends are... 0_o I didn't even feel the needle go in... XD Ok, I'll stop freaking everyone out. For now, I have something special. Not really, I just decided to scan a couple of my drawings in. I know, I know, I know, they suck Feel free to tell me how much they suck, I honestly don't care... I'm an awful artist worth crap. Here we go, shield your eyes:

Expressions of Shougo, .Hack

Axel, Kingdom Hearts II

Oh god that was horrible and you know it! Both were just quick sketches fyi. So yeah, I also made a wallpaper that I love dearly. It's my favorite wallpaper I've made by far; it was by request of the friend Katara. The only problem is the character is ROXAS! The problem is, I hate Roxas! Well, hate is a strong word, I dislike him. I even named the wallpaper after one of my favorite songs because I like the design so much. Why did it have to be roxas? Urg... Anyways, if you want to see the wallpaper head over to my graphics site it should be the first one. Also I've been have a frustration with my winzip. It works for about 5 hours, then the hosted file goes dead. I'm still looking into the cause of this, but in the mean time it's really annoying. -_- I am working on a new project by the way, going to make a fan listing collective for all the ones that I joined and maybe I'll manage one or two. Before, I had them all linked here, then I just took them down with the new layout, so they need a new home. C: I will be working on that, but I'm too lazy to make a layout for it, so I'll be putting it off.
I'm excited; I'm supposed to get my braces off this summer as long as I wear those rubber bands that fix over-bites. Unfortunately I haven't been wearing mine, I keep forgetting. D: My mom told me to write myself a reminder. I really do want to get them off really bad, it's just so hard to remember those dumb things. Oh, and then my sister who has finally recovered from her broken foot (well, mostly) needs to learn to drive. She's 18 and must drive! - So she can take me where ever I want. ^_^ That made me sound like a brat. XD For father’s day me, my mom and my sister were going to pitch in to get my dad a Wii fit. We did the demo for it at a fair a while ago and it was really fun, (I sucked at it). The strange thing is you cannot find them anywhere apparently they’re the new thing and everyone loves them because no one has them in stock... We continue to look for the Wii fit, and oh yeah my mom will totally fight some little kid for the last one in stock! XD I promise next post I'll have a scrap book because I haven't done one of those in a really long time. Enjoy your freedom everyone, cause I'm the kid who does homework during the summer. ~

OMG I took my own quiz (Yup, made this quiz ma self ;D):

You are most like Gaara of the Sand! You have a deep hate for the world around. You love only yourself and see others as nothing but toys to smash into the ground. Now that's cheery!
Take the Quiz

Listening to: BYOB, System of a Down
Reading: Angels & Demons, Dan Brown
Current Anime: FLCL & Samurai Champloo
Excited for: Next naruto chapter!
Feeling: Tired
Current Obsession: Domo!

Ok, I just haaaad to do that, good night! =D

J'ai mal au coeur.

2008-06-16T00:08:00.001-07:00

I know what you're thinking: Holy Crap! And if you're not, shame on you!!! Urm... most sane people should notice that there was a layout change! I hope you like it; I worked a while on it. (The coding that is) It took me a while to get used to the blogger coding, and I used a base code from a pre-made site. WITH CREDIT OF COURSE! I am probably going to get a few people asking me what anime the guy is from. Honestly, I can't say I know. I found him on photobucket A LONG time ago when I was looking for rp pictures. I fell in love with the picture, I was planning on using it somewhere but never found a purpose for it, therefore, many months later *cough* today, I wanted to make a layout for the blog, and randomly thought of the picture. I'm going to take a random guess it's just CG, if it’s not please tell me. It's just an AWESOME picture! *obsesses*. I tried to make the layout simplistic, yet didn't achieve it. XD I've called it solitude, so yeah, enough about the new layout.

SUMMER IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yes, I am freaking out over summer. I have had the worst last week you can possibly imagine, and it's been so hectic, I'm happy to just relax, sit back and enjoy myself. Last week was a complete disaster! First of all I was loaded with homework, that's normal it being the last week of school/finals week. I of course I did all my homework, there were some late nights, but I coped. Then, the unthinkable happened. On the third to last day of school I get my grade back on an essay in Lit and Comp. I honestly thought it was a good essay and I had put a lot of time into it. I'm slightly thinking about posting it, but I won't. Then, when I get my grade back it was 20 out of 28. (That's a 71% C). I was so upset; I didn't understand why I had gotten such a low score on it. So went to my teacher, she didn't tell me why she just said nothing, so I got upset, REALLY upset. I know I didn't deserve that grade on the essay. After school, my mom asked the teachers because she was confused too why it was given such a low score. It turns out the student teacher had graded it, and when asked why it was such a bad essay all she could point out about it was that I forgot to put parentheses around the source of my quotes, and that I used to many contractions (EX: won't, can't). THAT IS JUST DUMB!!!! And I honestly don't think she even read the whole essay, she circled the word "they" in the essay because you aren't supposed to use "you" in an essay. But the word they was referring to the word someone earlier in the sentence. (That sounds confusing I know) but she was being a bitch face. And asked why she hadn't marked more things on the paper in the first place, she said "I have 200 papers to grade..." YOU BIG FAT SNOT BUCKET, GO TO HELL! Yes, that's right you give me a "C" I tell you to go to hell. Sorry, I'm just so stressed over it, because we had a few other people read it and they said it didn't deserve that sort of grade. My friend who got 30 out of 28 on her essay said it was just as good as hers. We have deduced that the assistant teacher hates me, and grades unfairly, because there is no other explanation. The worst part is, I had a low "A" in that class, and with the score on that paper, I finished the semester with a "b" overall. This is my depression. Then not only that, but on the second to last day of school, my Ipod was stolen. Yep, stolen right out of my backpack, I have no idea who by. It's possible that it fell out, but we searched the school, the lost and found, the security box, everywhere, but it wasn't there. So the only explanation was that it was stolen. I tried not to get unhappy about it, and we never found it unfortunately.

On a happier note, some good things did happen last week, I got a new Ipod. My grand parents were still in town a couple days after It got lost/stolen, so they offered to buy me a new one. I was so relieved because I had to pay for the last one, (which was $250), then earlier this year it broke, and I had to pay $130 for a repairs. I <3 my grandparents though, because I would have died if I had to buy another one, and it's brand new 80 GB too! ~ In other happier news, on Thursday my sister had graduation. She's now a college freshman, and I'm a high school sophomore. Exciting isn't it? I'm so extremely proud of her because she did this program called IB which is an advanced course plan that is ridiculously hard, and she did it all! She's the most hard working person I know. Just to give you a taste of how hard IB is, most IB students say college was easier then the IB classes XD. My sister is so awesome, and I am going to be so sad when she moved out. (She's going to college in Washington.) I will talk to her everyday through phone and e-mail. And spam her on Gaia Mwahaha! Super congrats to her. Let me just say I'm psyced for summer; it's going to be amazing!

Animanga Update

2008-06-08T18:54:00.000-07:00

Recently I have been watching/reading a couple new series. Just thought I'd try something new, since I'm sick of the same old same old. I do love reading manga and watching manga, so if anyone has suggestions for me please E-mail me. I'll try just about anything, I prefer Shonen though I do like a few Shoujo animangas. I'm looking for anything with adventure, action, etc. So here's a few series that I've been looking at recently:

#1) About a week ago I was working on my entry for a contest with an angelic theme, and ran out of ideas for anime I could use. I did a Pita ten banner and a Tsubasa wallpaper. I then found this really nice picture of a girl with wings and deceided to find out what anime it was from. Because I can never make a layout on a series I have never watched I watched the first episode of AIR mostly because I wanted to use it on my layout. No offense to those who like it, but urm... It was strange the girl was VERY strange and the guy with the doll. I mean come on who sells a doll for a living?! The anime was just a bit strange to me, although I can't really judge, only watching one episode. I will probably never watch it again unfortunately, it was worth it though, because I really needed an angelic theme. >.<

#2) Just for the fun of it, I was looking at some new manga series, and saw Loveless on Manga fox's list. I had heard of it, it seemed farly popular, so I tried it... silly me, I didn't read the genre, and dove right in. I read one chapter. Honestly the plot sounded really good. No offense to all you yaoi lovers, but I'm not the biggest fan of it. So after the first chapter (Which was about 50-something pages) I gave up, finding it was too weird for me. Later I took a look at the genre, yup, shonen-ai/Yaoi. So I dropped it... but as I said earlier, the plot sounded really good. So any shonen-ai fans, go take a look at loveless... For those of you who are like me, well... I just won't say anything.

#3) Finally, more recently, my sister and I were browsing through anime we wanted to try out, because we were both bored to death. Once again I went off of popular picks. I suggested Blood + my sister being smarter then me looked it up on Manga Updates. She agreed to watch after reading the epiode description. Once again we ended up only watching one episode. Personally, I thought it was interesting, might check it out again later. My sister on the other hand thought it was too gory, and didn't like the big monster thing... XD It was intresting, and we were SOOOO close to watching the next episode. But then decided not to. I liked it (accept for that one last scene), so I'll probably look into it after I finish a couple other series I have started.

#4) Last, but certainly not least, was my pick of the group. After giving up on Blood + I suggested Samurai Champloo because once again, I knew it was popular. So we went to manga updates, and started watching. We both agreed after the first episode, it was TOTALLY worth it. Therefore, We've been watching it ever since together, we are on some episode # I forget, but we're almost done with the series. It's very funny, and enjoyable, and I LOVE all the characters. Epecially Mugen and Jin. It's just so funny XD You have to go watch it! So, that Is my pick for this update. Go watch and enjoy!

The intersections of Life

2008-05-22T20:39:00.000-07:00

Last weekend I went on a small trip, (A band trip) to Victoria, BC. It was actually fun, I couldn't go swimming though. Half of my friends would die if they didn't swim and the other half didn't even bring swim suits! So me and the non-swimming people hung out some. We marched in 2 parades, and went to a band showcase, where we basically marched on, played, and marched off. I have a huge parade coming up the day after school lets out, it's going to brutal. I'm not excited considering my thumb is going to be aching after it. Oh the pain us saxophones must endure. Getting back the point, the trip to Canada was a bit of an eye opener to me, I learned a bit more about each of my friends through stupid confessions and truth or dare games. Of course I didn't participate much, I'm not into the whole gossip scene, but I did learn something sad about one of my friends. I was originally going to make this post a mini letter to her, not that she'd ever read it because she doesn't even know I own a blog, but because I kind of want her to know that a feel bad for her. I know how cheesy that sounds though. No, it's not something as dramatic as a person or family member dying, and it's probably not as bad as I make it sound, but I thought it was kind of sad. People can change so much, just from asking you a question. What was more awkward was that the person who had changed was even there on the trip, although not in band. Alright now I'm rambling... No one even knows what I'm talking about! XD I'm not really going to explain because it has nothing to do with me, and well yeah. Straying aside from the band trip, I have been buried in homework. As everyone probably knows by now from my incessant complaining. I was assigned 3 essays in one day this week (Wednesday). Isn't that just insane? All the teachers realize that it's almost the end of the year, and they still have a ton of things to do, so all the teachers pile on the homework. My sister who is a senior this year is getting out next week. Today was her last Friday of High school ever! Man, I can't believe she's going to college next year. It's going to suck without her. She's going to college relatively close though, a state away isn't so bad I guess it could be worse. Anyways, I have been working here and there on odd ball internet projects, mostly on my guild, trying to revive it from the dead, which it now is thank goodness. Just this evening, I finished the banner for the layout of my graphics site, when ever I decide to continue on with that stuff. I'll post a preview:

Hover over for viewing instructions for the full size. I'm not a fan of it, but I kind of chose to do it in the style my friend Maki uses. Her Layouts are amazing, and much better then any I have made, so a shout out to her for being awesome! XD I finally finished my honors class this week as well, I'm happy considering my honors teacher was really strict and a harsh grader. It was funny though, because our honors class was the worst class ever. Once we hid behind the portable because the teacher would always be late, and twice we set the clock 10 minutes fast before our teacher came so we got out early. Then on the 2nd to last day this one kid jabbed the ceiling with a pool stick, and the cardboardish thing broke into a ton of pieces, and my teacher didn't even notice! It was funny. But the last essay in that class we wrote I have a feeling I didn't do so well, good thing it's not a graded class, because I rushed that essay a lot. I have a lot more to say actually, but I'm kinda tired, so I'm gonna call it a night. Hope you all like my banner, comment if so! =D

Damn You Karma!

2008-05-07T20:14:00.000-07:00

Damn it! I said I wasn't going to do it again... here I am being stupid! I hate life once again. Oh no, I thought that was all over and done through guess not. Between family, friends and school life once again sucks. My dear god... my family has so much issues. I really wonder how I survive some times. I've yelled so many times for them to shut up and stop arguing I think I'm going to explode. I just want 1 stupid little moment of silence. idiots! Then not to mention one of my friends never talks to me anymore. Isn't that lovely don't you think? She never would wave to me in the halls when I wave to her, and now she almost never acknowledges that I even exist. She's stopped eating lunch with us too. I have this theory maybe she thinks I'm clingy. But hell no, I'm not. I thought I was pretty good friends with her too. So stupid I hate it what did I do???!!! I'm not saying it's bad for her to sit with other friends or talk to other people, I'm not some demented freak I just fucking wish she would talk to me!! Gahhhh!!! Don't I just suck at everything? Maybe I should just go die. That would be the solution to everyone's problems don't you think? <--- Yes, this means I'm not ok.

Surprise, Surprise.

2008-05-01T20:14:00.000-07:00

Some times I scare myself, a lot... Example, I can get nervous around people I don't know? why? That's a great question, I have yet to figure it out. Then sometimes I see people who are a bit too open around others they don't know and think of them as annoying, and strange. Dude... what's my frickn' problem here. [I just said dude, =3]. You have no idea how much this shy thing a is problem for me. Around people I know I am like a totally different person, it's insane. Another thing that I found strange about myself is how I will think something in my head and say the exact opposite. Although that's not true in some cases... Although I'm not sure why I am surprised by this because I'm the one who shuts it all out right and has my little inner thoughts and all. *sigh* I also scare myself in how I care so much about how my hair looks. Is that weird or what. I'm like the person who doesn't care about how pretty I look, although I try to maintain basic personal hygiene as everyone should *cough* kid who sat across from me in science last year, stop smoking pot! *cough* I also change my mind a lot I'll listen to a song, think it sucks, and wonder how people listen to it, then the next time I listen to it I'll like it. (Not with pop music though, bleh!) A perfect example of this is at the beginning of the year, I hated my global studies class. Actually, now Global studies is my favorite class, it is actually everyone's favorite class, because we do nothing all period yet somehow we learn things. It's not in lecture form either, it's like some one implants the things we learn in each class into our brain, while we sit and do nothing. Not literally, but it's so odd how we get things done yet do nothing, the class period goes to fast. I have mixed feelings about the teacher for that class though. He's really nice and funny as a person. I guess he's ok at teaching although I can barely recall him teaching much. XD On the other hand, he won't tell me my grade until I get my progress report so I don't know if I have to work harder to get the A or not. So annoying I hate it! :K My Lit and Comp class on the other hand is the complete opposite, at the beginning of the year I quite enjoyed that class. Now it is one of worst. My teacher is pregnant in that class, I have a theory her mood swings are making that class awful. Not to mention, this student teacher has come to help out the class. She, absolutely SUCKS. She's annoying, and doesn't know how to teach, because now they switch off and on teaching. She gets off topic really easy too, but not the good sort of off-topic like extreme sports off-topic. More like damn boring off-topic. That class sucks for me now.
As I said before in band we have now resumed parade practices after school on Tuesdays and Thursdays. My thumb is killing me, I have not yet gotten used to marching with my tenor sax. It kills me every time we go to a horns up, I die. =) Also speaking of band, I got a piece of mail today. My band director said he was going to make recommendations of people for an honor band trip to go to Europe this summer. So basically, if he recommends you, you can choose to join this band of people made up of the best musicians in the state where I live. When he first told us about this in class, I was excited but I knew I would never get recommended, seeing as I'm not that good at playing. Yet today I got a note in the mail about it saying I was recommended. I was purely amazed. Never in my wildest dreams would I think that I would be able to do it. Although... there are a few issues, it costs A TON of money. Which my parents don't seem willing to pay. Plus it would be with people I don't know for the most part unless someone else from my freshman band is recommended and decides to go. I probably won't go, my chances don't look to good from where I stand right now, but I am just really happy that my band director thought I was good enough, because he could only choose a limited amount of people. At first I thought that it was some sort of mistake that he had meant to recommend someone else and accidentally put my name down... but it's not. *is still amazed*. If I were to go, it would be 16 days this summer and It would be to places like France (although I've been there), Spain, Italy, Switzerland, and some other place I can't remember. It would be cool, but I seriously doubt I'll be going.
My sister seems to be doing better. It's been a week since she broke her foot. Yesterday she went in and they took off the splint and gave her a boot she could walk in. She is still using the crutches since this is her second day with the boot, and she's still getting used to it, But when she takes the boot off, her foot looks DISGUSTING! It's brownish, blueish, greenish, yellowish, purpleish bruised bulges. It's pretty gross. My mom said "It's every color of the rainbow," and I'm sorry to say it is... I hope she gets better soon though, I feel bad for her, yet she's been annoyingly demanding as a stated in the last post where I sounded like a jerk. =D Speaking of annoying jerks there has been a situation at my little neopets guild the past couple of days, I'll spare you from the details, but those who know, know it was a big fat annoying hassle involving plagiarism it will hopefully never happen again. It was a big time eater too, I had to solve the problem and work it out being the "leader" and all. It put some of my other internet projects off-schedule which pissed me off seeing as I wanted to be done with what I was working on this weekend. I'll get over it sometime...

I Suck At Life...

2008-04-28T19:28:00.000-07:00

I SUCK AT LIFE! ...Or so says my "hate friend" we are friends yet hate each other at the same time. ^_^ He's nice I guess, but really annoying/stupid at other times. He has a thing for insulting me too, in the past he called me "an ass hole" "an unpatriotic bastard" and of course told me "I suck at life". It's all in good fun... Or is it? 0_o Anyways... it's almost May which means I'm going to die, I'm going on a band trip sometime in May ICK! Yet... at the same time it'll be somewhat fun. Wow, I keep contradicting myself. On friday of last weak I went to one of my friend's house for a small exchange. She has limewire so she can get music for free, and I have a lovely little program that converts DVD's to a form that's compadable with Itunes. I installed the program on her computer for her, and I got a couple songs from Limewire. If I had downloaded all the music I want at this point that would have taken days and days to download. So, I ended up getting about 25 songs from her. She saved me $25 dollars so I owe her. Ok... finally getting to the point here I got new music, yay! Some of it includes: Linkin Park, (6 songs), System of a Down (4 songs, I was gonna get more, but I ran out of time), Disturbed (1 song), Stoned Sour (1 song), Flyleaf (1 song), Sum 41 (1 song), 3 doors down (1 song), Tons of J-rock songs (Thank god! None were on Itunes). So I give a big round of applause to my anonymous for being awesome!!! I keep listening to System of Down Hypnotized the most. And then probably the Linkin Park songs. Oh... speaking of music, I should fix the playlist it died a while ago... I'll get around to it sometime. =D Oh, in other news, my sister broke her foot. She is currently on cruches, and on Wednesday she is supposed to go in and [hopefully] get the "boot thing" which alows her to walk without cructchs. Thank goodness! When she's home she just sits on the couch, does her homework and browse Youtube on my notebook. I feel really bad for her, but at the same time she keeps asking me to "do this for her" and and "get that for her" I know, I know, I sound like a jerk by saying this. I honestly feel bad for her, but I generally am a dead beat lazy imbecile... -_- Although I do think she should get over her issues about freaking out about getting ong the bus with crutches... There is this one girl on my bus who goes every day with crutches. Ok, ok. I'm a stupid jerk I'll shut up now. In the way of graphics, I've been working on Neopets a lot because my guild members claim it's dying, so I'm working on everything. I made a premade lookup of Shikamaru and completely re-did the webbie layout. Then on my little site, I made an L I-frames layout. Yay for L! And on that note, I return to my homework...

[Edit] Yay, Ok, I fixed the music box!!! Not gonna post the list this time, you have to look for your self. [/Edit]

The worst people

2008-04-21T19:25:00.000-07:00

I hate it when you try to be someone that your not. It makes me want to scream, it makes me want barf, but mostly it makes me want to cry. I hate it when you go without saying why, and you never tell, I hate it when I hear you yell at the top of your lungs at me. You screaming used to scare me so bad I cried, now I don't but I still feal so guilty for every word I say you took the wrong way, every fucking insult I threw in your face. Maybe it's my fault. It probably is... This is why you hate me right? This is why you give me dirty looks every day isn't it? I hate it how you make me feel like I can tell you everything, but I can't, and I know I can't, because I never will. Why'd you leave me there defenceless with these people I didn't know. I hate it how one thing I say can make you go off the deep end, and feel so offended. I hate it how much I trust you. I hate how you can just give me one look and that feeling can make me want to die, make me hate myself. Why are you doing this to me? please... make it stop.

Life Goes On

2008-04-04T22:41:00.000-07:00

A lovely friend told me that I was neglecting my blog. I have to agree. I've been a bit busy. That's the best excuse I got, sorry. busy with school, busy with internet, busy with friends, etc... the usual. I have been working on a few sites pretty hard one is which I have made for my guild. I'm not sure if I have mentioned it but it's a small Naruto Fan Shrine called Naruto Universe. I changed the host to support PHP, and am now revamping it. Also I have created a graphics site. I'm waiting to see how long it'll last. So far I have made 4 renders, 8 avatars and one premade Inline Frames layout. I'm a bit frustrated though because I wanted to make the layout downloadable, you know like a .zip or .rar file, but unfortunately I do not own Winzip which is supposedly the best program to zip files. It costs money on the official site, and I have seen a couple sites that make it a free download, but I'm debating on it still. I need adivce... Other then that I have been working hard on my little mini site there. The name I made was really lame. I won't say what it is, but abrieviated it's t-d and no, the "D" is not for designs. (The avatar I used on the post was one I made for the site.) =_= Otherwise I have been doing multiple things, taking a lot of tests in school, watching tons and tons of anime, and sleeping a lot. I finished the Death Note anime series a while ago, but more recently I have watched Ouran Highschool Host Club. (I think its one of the few shoujo animanga I like.) as well as many episodes of One piece with my sister. They stoped playing it on Saturday Toonami, so we decided to watch it online we are currently on episode 203. Out of 350!!! *sigh* it's going to take a while to catch up. I am also thinking of starting to watch Zatch Bell online, they also stopped playing it a while ago. In the way of music I have been practicing my Sax a lot. We have gotten new music recently, it's basically split down the middle half and half, one half of the music extremely hard, while the other half was pretty easy to even site read. Although, I have been dreading going to my honors Lit class. It's depressing, (It's a small class that happens in the portables once a week, durring study hall for people who signed up). Last week everyone in the class hid behind the portable. It was kind of funny, because our teacher is always late. He was freaking out like what happened to the class?! Next week honors is going to be a drag, cause our rough drafts for our essays are due. I hate writing essays, especially when they are on short stories. I had read the one that we're writing on before the class in like 7th grade or something. It's called "The Lottery" if anyone has ever heard of it. It's the one where the lady gets stoned to death. Isn't that lovely? -_- I am also depressed because we had a bio test this week. It was super hard! As I have explained to some extent I hate my biology teacher. Her tests have nothing to do with what we learned in class. On top of that we have just gotten to our last unit, and we are going to do 7 disections of animals/animal parts before the end of the year, oh joy! I hate desections because everyone in may group is usually afraid to cut, so I am stuck cutting the pig's heart open or something gross like that. Well on that note I will leave you. Hopefully I post again soon.

Don't forget the Dynamics

2008-03-01T09:16:00.000-08:00

Happy March, and happy late leap year. Nothing much has been going on recently. I've been a bit happy and a lot unhappy. Two extremes I guess. I've begun sleeping on my floor and I have no idea why... It's not like I was getting much sleep in my bed in the first place. It's been hard for me to get some sleep recently. As a result, my French teacher is mad when ever I fall asleep in class. I have been doing all my homework on time. Which is really good, but I have progress reports next week and two of the classes I was most concerned about have teachers who refuse to tell me my grade. I've been having some other "social self issues" which I won't go into detail about. But I just realized something strange this week about someone who I guess I was friends with before. It's confusing, and I won't say anything else. On to happier topics I am doing something this weekend at least that will keep my mind off things. Today I'm supposed to be working on a bio project with my friend, then tomorrow my sister has an orchestra concert. Speaking of music: I am getting better at Saxophone at least, I have been practicing and going to my lessons. But then again, I ad a small incident in band class this week I made a huge mistake and tore my self apart for it. I was dreading whole rest of the day. Also on the topic of music. I want limewire!!! Itunes sucks. Sure limewire's "illegal" but it's free music! I have about 100 songs I would like to download to my Ipod at this point, but I can't because I'm broke. I feel worse for my sister who can't even have 1,000 songs because she has a 1 GB mp3 player from Sony. Oh, also in other news, I added a play list to the blog again. It's only like 10 songs, but I will probably change them soon enough. It's ice to have songs to listen to when I'm posting or something. Here's the current listing:
1. MCR - I Don't Love you
2. 30 Seconds To Mars - Attack
3. Orange Range - Viva Rock ~Japanese Side~
4. Sum 41 - Pieces
5. Linkin Park - Easier To Run
6. MCR - Helena
7. Evanescence - Imaginary
8. Utada Hikaru - SAKURA DROPS
9. Three Days Grace - Never Too Late
Those aren't exactly all of my favorite songs, they were just what I was thinking of at the moment. Just for kicks I decided to take a Tsubasa Character quiz, and I got Kuro! Who is my favorite. Yay!

What Tsubasa Character Are You?
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Note: I've been having issues with the song "Attack" it keeps stoping in the middle, if you notice the same issue, please comment as such so I can know whether to change the code or not.

I Don't Love You

2008-02-23T11:39:00.000-08:00

This should sound incredibly mean, but it's only the truth!: I have a cockatiel named Ozzie who is now older then I am by a few years. I think everyone in my family hates it to death. It will not shut up! We all say how we wish it would just die already because it's so OLD! I swear all of my pets (except the fish) are immortal!!!! Not once have I ever gone through the pet death experience. One of my cats is 14, the other is 5. Which is normal for cats, right? Well, my gerbil is 4 years old, (going on 5 in march) They are supposed to die at 2 or 3! I actually love all my pets though, (besides the bird). Recently my bird has been obsessing over a plastic tweedy bird figurine. It also more recently broke. My dad blew up a yellow balloon and tied it to the cage, to try and make the bird "not feel as lonely" I told my mom about this and you know what her response was? She said hopefully the bird would start pecking at it, and it would pop giving the bird a heart attack, which would kill it. XD Yeah, I know how mean that sounds, but if you have to live with this thing you would hate it. We've tried to give it away, but no one would take it because it's so dang old!!! Then one of my friends said her cockatiel lived till age 27. We're stuck with it now!

On to more important matters now that I'm done talking about my bird. This weekend was good that is a rare thing for me. I got a hair cut yesterday. It looks really good in my opinion ^.^ The week has been ok, which is also strange for me. =) I have been listening to My Chemical Romance, I never really liked them too much, but these past through days I've been looking at their older songs from "Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge". They are pretty good, I'm not into the whole Black Parade, and Teenagers songs, although I do like "Famous Last Words" From that album. The song that stuck with me the most is the title of this post. It's a great song... It's slower and has more of a meaning then the others I think, but that's just me. Some other songs I really liked were "Helena", and "I'm Not Ok". Although let me just say the lead singer really needs to use less eye shadow. =] Youtube has been great to me while radio blog club is down for maintenance AGAIN! It's ticking me off... but I'll live.

~When you go,
Would you have the guts to say,
I don't love, you like I loved you yesterday

Walk this World Alone

2008-02-21T20:17:00.001-08:00

I just got back from Saxophone lessons for an hour this time. I have some issues... Considering that there will be a big band trip coming up this April or May (Going to Canada! XD) I have yet to decide whether I will be playing as a Tenor Sax or a Clarinet. I want to play Saxophone, but it might be too hard for me to memorize the music + it's huge compared to the black stick thing. I should decide soon though... Also speaking of band today was just a sick and strange band class. We had a substitute band teacher, and for the second half of the period we turned in our class forecasting sheets. She had major issues in the department of talking to kids. Every word out of her mouth was something weird and not understandable. She was speaking English no doubt, but she mixed the words up. It was ridiculous because we barely got it done. Meanwhile the alto Saxes were having some sort of fiesta with those origami birds, people kept making them and throwing them around. Eventually one ended up inside my "sort-of friend"'s tuba. It was funny, but really distracting. Other wise the day was quite boring accept for the excessive yelling when I was woke this morning. My mom tries to get me up on time, and I am one of those people that won't get out of bed for anything. After I finally got out of bed I went downstairs to eat breakfast and fell asleep on the couch. (This is where the yelling began). I have wanted new headphones for quite some time; I was thinking one of those big ones that block out sound, my mom says she will buy them for me if I get to school on time more often. This morning she said she took back her deal *sighs*. You know, now that I think about it I really do enjoy chatting with myself here. It's too bad I stopped posting for so long. heh... Oh also a couple weeks I began playing Gaia. I don't go on much right now, but please request to be my friend if you are not yet! This is My Profile. I still need advice on how to use gaia and all seeing as I'm still a bit of newbie there. =) For now I have nothing more. Accept an avatar I made really quickly, just because it's one of my all time favorite anime characters. (Sorry I know it's really bad).

Sigh of Relief

2008-02-20T21:25:00.000-08:00

I haven't written here in a long time. I guess it sort of died.... Either that or I got over my problems and stopped writing about it. Although that is not the case, there are still major issues going on in my life. I just don't have the time or energy to write here. Often times I will look back on my old journals from Elementary school and laugh at the stupid things I would write about. Then there was always the time when I write: I hate *insert best friend's name here* because we had gotten into a fight. Then the next day it would be over and I would take back all the nasty things I wrote about them. And now I've lost my train of thought. That's odd... This semester hasn't been much better in school. My schedule did not change accept from Health to P.E. which is a whole other story. I dislike my P.E. teacher she's a bit too snotty for me. But then again I don't like anyone who makes me run laps in general. =D Today was actually an awkward day today. One of my in the middle friends (not very close, but not very far) was being quite rude to me. I have not a clue as to why. He called me several bad names and such. I sat through it hoping he was just partially joking. I figure this is some sort of guy-mood swing. I'm a mild person anyways, so I tolerate bad jokes even from friends. I have gotten much more in to Saxophone now. I practice every day now... I am getting better and hopefully I will be good enough to play it on the band trip to Canada rather then Clarinet. I have been playing it in class as well. Speaking of band, forecasting for next year was last and this week. I have all my classes in order now. I will be taking Lit & Comp 10, American Studies, Advanced Algebra II, AP Biology, AP Government, Band, and French III. It might sound like a lot but hopefully I will be able to handle it. I know that I won't have as much leisure time for the internet though, which could become disappointing, but to me school and my future is more important I guess. So this is all that has happened to me. (Skipping all the details), nothing too exciting unfortunately. Although, I do live in Oregon, and there was a big thing on the news about a meteor that fell a couple nights ago and landed somewhere in Washington, but that doesn't really matter does it? I thought it was interesting, but that's just me. I have been doing a bit of graphics work with my new program Paint Shop Pro XI. It's sort of hard for me to look at other's graphics and still not think how mine will never compare, but it's still depressing. Today was also my sister's birthday another grim topic in my opinion. She is turning 18 this year and is going to college soon. This is traumatizing to lose such a great friend and also I will be stuck with my parents without her when she does leave for college. As I have said before me and my parents aren't exactly the best of friends. We have run-ins like all families I guess; just sometimes I don't like taking the hit. Nevertheless, I do wish my sister a happy 18th Birthday and hopes she enjoys adulthood. I still have 3 more years to go. It was also my Dad's birthday today, (they were born on the same day of the year). Tsk he's such an oldie. =P I also wish him a happy birthday. That's all for now, I will end this post with a couple avatars I made a couple days ago just for some color to the gray and unexciting post.

EDFAAE

2008-01-31T15:59:00.000-08:00

Life hasn't gotten better I'm sorry to say. I've tuned out on the world I guess. My mom has been scarring me, it gets worse. She gets mad saying I never talk and she wants to know how I'm "feeling" this troubles me, and I tell her no. She gets more mad. I have a bad case of EDFAAE recently too. I bet you can't guess what that means... Figure it out and maybe I'll give you somthing. <- See what I mean the mentally insane issues never stop with me. So what of it, life is what it is... It sucks for me, it's great for you who gives a damn. I haven't been doing much to vent this disgust either, my mood changes like crazy, it's killing me. You can just tell by my stupid mummbling here. Well who wants to hear about me anyways, I should just shut up and go die right. Not like anyone cares.... Let's all laugh at the insane freak! hahahahaha It's sooo funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - Yes this means I'm not ok.

Lyrics

2008-01-02T14:21:00.001-08:00

Thought I'd post one of my favorite song's lyrics. It's called 'Sure things Falling', form one of my favorite bands, Yellowcard. The avatar I used was also from a Yellowcard song...

Sure thing Falling, Yellowcard
He likes vampires and hit list radio
But turns it off when he hears this one song he knows
And you breathe the windows down
You're driving I-4 as you make your way back home
You ride in silence because he will not let go
And you breathe the windows down
It's a new place that you have found

Chorus

I've been up late writing books
All about heroes and crooks
One of them saves you from this
The other one steals you and then, sure, things, fall
And all sure things fall.

Do you remember how we used to get so high
It didn't work at first we tried it two more times
And we could breathe the windows down
I was thinking of the temperature outside
Cool like the water that was running from our eyes
And we could breathe the windows down
It's a new place that we had found

Chorus

He can take you all the way to church this time
But don't forget you summed it up in fifteen lines

I've been up late writing books
All about heroes and crooks
One of them saves you from this
The other one steals you!

Of all of the places I've looked
And all of the pictures I took
One of them's here with me now
I'm finally finding out how, sure, things, fall
All sure things fall

Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

2007-12-23T21:10:00.000-08:00

I haven't written in forever... sorry. As my friend wrote on the comment of my last post, my life completely stopped for a holiday break. XD Not quite, but ok. Anyways I while ago I started a post, and never finished it, here is the unfinished bit of it.

"Hi all. I'm working quite hard on things. There was an issue with Freewebs, and I had to move my Guild extras site over to a new host. After a couple of days for looking for one, I found ripway, I've been working on transfering all the pages over. It might not seem that bad, but it's kind of annoying. Here's a quick poem I wrote in my head this morning, thought I should put it down somewhere... Yeah, I know it sucks as usual.

Love you, Hate you
Hate you, Love you
I want you to die,
But I know it won't be goodbye
You just irk me so bad
and it makes me so sad
that when you walk away
It'll be my turn to pay.

Love you, Hate you
Hate you, Love you
Don't leave me
or everyday you'll see me
in the the back of your mind
Don't worry, I'm not hard to find.

Love you, Hate you
Hate you, Love you
Sometimes I wish you were dead
But I'll remember every word you said
Write it out on paper for you
'cause I've got nothing better to do

Love you, Hate you
Hate you, Love you
I stuck inbetween
and torn at the seems.

That's Basically where it stopped. ^^ Anyways, most of that stuff is irrelivant now... so what ever! But it did include that awfull poem! So uhhh. Yeah, the holidays are over for me, but happy holidays!!! I'm currently on winter break. Yay! I've been playing video games, reading, and lots of internet so nothing interesting here. No drama to share, I've been working hard to get my grades up too! Um... My sister seems unhappy, as much as I'd love to talk more about this, I should go talk to her. Ta ta for now...

Reality... LOST!!!

2007-11-27T15:54:00.000-08:00

Have you ever seen that really wierd sprite commercial on TV? The one where there are guys playing basketball, and then one drinks sprite and the court turns into a pool? Well I have been listening to the song from that commercial a lot. I was surprised they had it on radio blog club. Out of my kindness I decided to share it with you. ^_^ It's called "I'm Falling Away".

Be sure to tell me if you like it! =) I joined a new fanlisting too! KH2 OST Fanlisting! My sister is now forcing me to listen to this creepy song called Miko Miko Nurse. *Gakkk!!!* I'm not feeling so great, and the song is slightly making it worse. Today I had Global studies again. That class isn't that bad, but I've had some conflict with the teacher (as stated earlier) OMG, it was just a desk!!! I also have been scanning some anime graphics sites just for fun. A silent watcher. (I've been doing this for a long time.) I've always wanted one of my own. My HTML skills are perfect for the job, but I'm afraid that I need better programs if I was serious. Of course I am not... I'm too tired to post more. Must play neopets... (I'm zombified!!!)

What a Drag....

2007-11-24T16:52:00.001-08:00

Hurray for the four day weekend!!! For thanksgiving I went over to a friend's house and our families had dinner together. It was fun. We saw a movie over there... It was called Tokyo Godfathers, it was really funny. (It's an anime movie), It was kinda creepy yet kinda funny at the same time. I also saw a movie in theaters called August Rush. I usually don't go for those kinds of movies, but it was really good. I recomend =). Lesse not many of the others I watch were worth mentioning. Except one maybe I rented three movies at once from the video store. The one I liked the most out of them was called Deja vu. That was really cool. I liked the plot line. I haven't been online for a couple days, and it seemed like all hell broke loose at my guild. I have too much mail to answer. XD Now members are arguing who gets to RP as Pein. *sighs* If only I was payed. lol. I'm kidding I love my small neopets guild. =P I was paying a lot of attention on reading Manga and I finished a novel I got a week ago. Now, I've been spending my time roleplaying at my guild and listening to J-rock and J-pop. I have really taken a liking to the artist Utada Hikaru. I first heard about it though of course Kingdom Hearts. I listened to some of her other songs, and my favorites so far are Colors, and Sakura Drops. I have added both to my playlist, as well as a lot of other new songs. Go look! I need some other source (other then Itunes) for music. I'm not doing Limewire. Too many viruses, but Itunes doesn't have half of the music I want! *sobs* If you have any legal suggestions, e-mail me!!! I'm getting sorta desperate.

In other news, school has been once again very boring. This is the third year in a row that we have had to read Lord of The Flies. I'm getting really sick of this book people! And in Global Studies we've been watching a disgustingly boring movie. I'm glad it's finally over! Biology has turned out to be a complete waste of my time. I haven't learned anything in the class all year, and I have a feeling that I won't. I knew I should have took Chemistry. Geometry has been pretty boring as well. I need more challenging classes. French is just annoying, it seems to go slower then any of my other classes. The last two periods we were watching a movie in french. That was a nice way to pass the time thank god. Other classes have been quite scattered and aren't worth mentioning. I'm still seeking a music store to try out a Tenor Sax, and a book store to get the next book in the series I am reading as well as The next Tsubasa.

Quote of the Day:

"Naruto, it's nice that you removed the poison so spiritedly, but you'll bleed to death if you lose any more... seriously."
-Kakashi-sensei <3

Enjoyable Walks

2007-11-20T19:05:00.000-08:00

You can usually tell how I'm feeling by how fast I walk. If I'm listening to music I'll walk very fast. Music has a very positive effect on me. I can listen and think of other things, I'll still be entertained while my mind is blank. When I'm upset of frustrated, or unhappy; I'll walk slow. I bearly move up the hill. Let's just say as I was walking home today it took me twice as long as it normally does to get home. Mom was worried... I quite enjoyed it. It gives me time to think about everything, and everyone.

Don't want your hand this time...

2007-11-17T18:17:00.000-08:00

I had a good day. This can only mean one thing: The world is going to explode. I slept in late... That was nice I'm always really tired in the morning. I had the strangest dream I can't remember. I never dream, so it was odd. They say that everyone one dreams when they sleep but only sometimes can you remember it. It's never really happened to me before. I had a faint memory of dreaming about something. Which I'm not going to state. I played video games in the morning, then got online. I heard my dad talking to my mom over the phone, they were planning to buy me photoshop. My dad asked me what version I wanted... I told him and he went to look it up online. After much discussion, my parents started calling around from store to store to see if anyone sold it. We found a bunch of people selling the CS3 version. I didn't exactly want that one though. I've been doing some research on this subject. So anyway, we call around and no one has the version I want. That is a bad sign. After trying every electronic store around and finally my mom calls Office Max. They say they have it for $140. My mom sounds very happy. I laugh knowing there is flipping way, and the person must be looking at the wrong version. My mom drags me out to look at it anyways. When we get there, they don't even have it. I was really pissed, I mean I knew they wouldn't have the right version, and they were lying, but they didn't even have it!!!! My dad is now hooked to the idea of downloading it online for cheaper. My mom thinks its a scam because she's afraid of downloading anything. My mom has now turned to the dark side and wants to buy me PSP instead. I don't want Paint shop pro, I've went over this with her a billion times, but she never seems to realize it... *sigh* The good outcome of this is knowing that they are willing to buy me some sort of upgarde in graphics programs. Also, afterwords we stopped by the bookstore and I picked up Tsubasa Vol. 8. That was nice too. We also went to the movie store. My parents rented some weird ones... I don't want to watch any. I refrained from doing any homework today. That was a bad choice on my part. I'm going to have to make up for it tomorrow. I'm not even sure I'll have time to post!

On a happier note, I have been in a good mood today. I'm never in s good mood so yay for that! I also took a kh quiz. This was my result. Yay Riku!

What Kingdom Hearts character suites your personality?
created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Riku

You are Riku! You tend to do things for self gain and whatever is good for you. Saving or helping your friends really isnt on the agenda but it is still on your mind. You often find yourself competing with a friend or someone else for someone you like. You also have a taste for high adventure and are always trying to find answers to questions. Although you have some evil in you, you also have a good inside of you...

That's all for now, I'm too tired to write more. Yes, I know I'm getting lazy...

Quote of the Day:

"Don't want your hand this time - I'll save myself.
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom"
-Evanesence, Going Under

Shadow of Death

2007-11-16T16:34:00.000-08:00

I'm just so happy it's the weekend. Next week is a three day school week because of Thanksgiving holiday. Hu-rah! Yesterday the funniest thing happened. I was in my second period health class, and there was a new student who has lived in Japan for most of her life. People were asking her random questions about Japan. One guys asked if they had seals in Japan. (I have no idea why he would ask that...) The girl's responce was only in zoos. There is this one semi-preppy girl in our class who randomly called out. "They have zoos in Japan?!" Everyone laughed. That's just sad, some people are naturally stupid. She said she thought only America had Zoos. I laughed, but not as hard as I did on the inside. Anyways, It's been a while since I've posted a poem so I'll come up with one off the top of my head...

I am surrounded by lines and lines of people.
They are waiting patiently for something, I'm not quite sure what.
I am off to the side of the many twisting and turning lines
Where are they leading to, what are they waiting for?
I look to the front of the line,
and the shadow of death pulls them in.

Where am I?
Some one approachs me.
Do you need help finding your line? Old age? Suicide? She asks
I shake my head, I don't have to look any more, I'm inline for death.
I see myself at the front of the line,
and the shadow of death pulls me in.

I'm scared as I try and find where to go...
I'm the only one out of line
Suddenly I'm alone
No one in sight
and the shadow of death has pulled me in.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...........That sucked bad!! Oh well. Heh it's an improve poem doesn't have to be good I guess. To recover from that suckyness I must post lyrics!

Stars, Switchfoot

Maybe I've been the problem
Maybe I'm the one to blame
But even when I turn it off and blame myself
The outcome feels the same

I've been thinking maybe I've been partly cloudy
Maybe I'm the chance of rain
And maybe I'm overcast
And maybe all my luck's washed down the drain

I've been thinking 'bout everyone,
Everyone you looks so lonely
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself

Stars looking at a planet
Watching entropy and pain
And maybe to start to wonder
How the chaos in our lives could pass as sane

I've been thinking 'bout the meaning of resistance
Of a hope beyond my own
And suddenly the infinite and penitent
Begin to look like home

I've been thinking about everyone
Everyone you looks so empty
But when I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I see someone else
When I look at the stars
The stars, I feel like myself.
Yeah!

Everyone, Everyone feels so lonely
Everyone, yeah everyone feels so empty
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars
When I look at the stars, I feel like myself
When I look at the stars
The stars, I see someone...

K, I think we're over it now. I would post more, but dinner is calling me. Bye for now sorry I had to put you through that disgustingly awful poem.

Quote of the Day:

"Save the Earth, it's the only planet with Chocolate!!!"

Fooling Myself

2007-11-14T15:55:00.000-08:00

How should I put this without it sounding really wierd. Here goes... Today I wore my gay lion shirt. Ok, that didn't work! Yes, it's true, I while back I bought a shirt with two adorable lions on it. (This is a Harajuku lovers shirt by the way,) and well, it has two lions and they have hearts all around them. It's a really cute shirt, but one of my friends at the begining of school kept telling me it was a gay lion shirt because both the lions have maines. It's true I have a gay lion shirt! -_- Anyway, that's not the point, so I was wearing that shirt today, and it happens to have a bunch of holes in the side of it. When I was walking home today. I was literaly freezing to death. It was so flipping windy! The wind went through me like I was nothing! *shivers* I'm so cold. So yeah, today I am not doing anything. Just lounging around my house. School was pretty boring too... and I don't have homework!!! Yay! I have nothing to say, so here is current stats:

Feeling: Like crap as usual XD
Reading: Nothing! I just finished a book, on the hunt for a new one. -_-
Manga Reading: Tsubasa/Cowboy Bebop
Currently listening to: What's This?, FOB
Webpage Browsing: My own! :3

So many thing you don't care about. Well, I thought I'd share some more graphics, I haven't in a while, so here goes,

Ehhhh... Most recent layout I made, I did it very quickly, It was a gaia profile that I made for my sister. It's not the original one I made, after I finished it she edited it a ton. I personally thought it looked better before, but what ever, it's her thing. I made the whole thing otherwise. I'm not really happy with it, sort of like a your really bothering me, I'm going to do this quick thing. You can totally tell too! lol. Oh well, she was somewhat happy with it. I wasn't. The sad part is she never even used it, lol!!! I'm out for today, I'm getting to tired!

Quote of the Day:

"OH MY GOSH, IT'S PURPLE!!!!!"
(This is an inside joke from 7th grade.)

Voicing My Silent Opinion

2007-11-13T17:18:00.000-08:00

Ack... I haven't posted in a couple days... and I haven't even been busy. 0_o I finished the book I was reading. (Twilight) On to the sequal! I also have been reading Tsubasa resevior chronicals. They are quite good so far, I like Kuro-kun the best! Anyways onto the joy of my lit and comp class. Today we had a large descussion in class about stupid things. The period bored me. As usual, I didn't say a word but there were several responces as to what they were saying in my mind.

Teacher: Ok, so let's make up this situation were everyone at "Highschool X (Insert Rinku's Highschool name here)" was locked in the building, with no adults What do you think would happen.
Random Kid: PARTY!
My Inner Thoughts: First off, this is lit and comp class, unlike everyone else I know without looking at the board she's going to relate this to Lord of the Flies, which will end up as a book we will begin reading. Second off, I'd use my chain saw that I bring to school everyday and rip a hole in the wall to escape from the disgusting madness.
Teacher: Do you think some one would try to take charge?
Random Kid #2: They would probably try but it wouldn't work.
My Inner Thoughts: Hmmmm... Let's see Jack the durranged chior leader would try only to fail in the hands of Ralph, then he'd become a canible in a sad attempt to worship a pig head on a stick. (This'll only make sence if you've read the book.)
Teacher: Would there be different groups?
Annoying Girl: everyone has a clique their in even if they don't believe in clique's they're still in one.
My Inner Thoughts: FUCK YOU!!!

k, maybe that was a bit harsh, but that girl was asking for it, She's really been pissing me off. *sighs* There was something else in lit class later that bothered me... The book we are reading... which again I've already read has a girl in it who cuts herself. This was my teacher's discussion.

Teacher: So what did you all think about that chapter.
Random Kid #3: She cuts herself, she's crazy!
Teacher: Blah, blah, blah (I wasn't listening at this point)
My Inner Thoughts: These people don't know what it's like to feel really bad, they have friends, and familys who actually care. This is why they think she's crazy. If you're really sad it's just like an emotion that effects you and you feel so bad that there's no where left to be. It's also a cry for help. I know this feeling very well.

So that's all the Lit and Comp drama for now. Other then that the day was quite boring as usual. I watched videos in health. Yay! Video days are good days to sleep. I also took a nap in my global studies class which was equally boring, it was nice to get some sleep. Ther teacher caught me though... (I'm beggining to wonder about him...) *shifty eyes* I aparently have to go somewhere for dinner. Some guy my dad wants us to meet. Rinku out! ~Wow, that was so lame!!!!! <3~

Quote of the Day:

"........."

!You know that's an awesome quote!

Life Goes On...

2007-11-10T11:54:00.000-08:00

Today Is Saturday. I love Saturday. Saturday's are good days. A good day to die. Today I don't have band. Hurray! (this is because band is over!) My sister has orchestra though. Not being able to hang out with her is sad. She'll be back soon. My mom is apartently going to drag me out to mexican food for lunch. I think she thinks it's a mother-daughter thing. Oh joy! -_- It might get me a free ticket to the book store though. (The resturant with the better mexican food is right next to the book store.) I intend to get a job over the summer. Working at Borders. If they reject me I'll try Powell's. Absolute last resort will be Barns and Nobles. (All book stores around the area I live.) Only question is... Who going to drive me there?! I'm still working that one out... 0_o I'm probably just going to read today, and hang out online. I've been depribed from reading my book since all week I've been busy. Unfortunately I'm in the mood for Sushi rather then Mexican food. The last time I had sushi was about 2 weeks ago, my friend shared some of his that he had for lunch. *drools over sushi* My family hates sushi though. Especially my mom so much for that idea. My sister hasn't even tried it, and she hates it. She's actually really close minded about all food. She likes Chicken. That's about it under the meat catagory. She'll only eat beef on RARE ocasions. She also hates sea-food. My mom is simalar but not exactly as bad as her. She just is forceful about what she eats. It's a long story... Basically if she's hungry, we eat or burn in hell forever. This casuses us to have early dinners 50% of the time. I've learned to keep my mouth shut about this around her. Oh yay, I just remembered how much homework I have T_T Eh...... I'm not in the mood to do it right now. Probably put it off to the last second as usual. My sister probably has more work then me to do. More random thoughts: Not sure If I already said this, but oh well... About two days ago I got an e-mail back from my friend that moved. I remember laughing so hard when I read this one part. We both have a great distain for our Biology teacher. I remember one time She had us do an experiment with pipettes. A lot of people were calling them droppers and our Bio teacher got pissed. She said to call them pipettes. So in my last e-mail to my friend, I told her how the Bio teacher kept asking where she was. My friends responce to this: "Tell her that she can take a pipette and shove it up her Canadian/Swedish/German/UglyWhore-ish ass. i hate that lady." Yep... Word for word. You may think that's really mean. If you knew how awful my Biology teacher was, you'd be laughing your head off. *Is still laughing about it*. Anyways... My report card came in the mail about a day ago. (It was quarter grades, so it didn't really count.) My mom got pissed cause I have a C in health. I have to go talk to my health teacher now. *sighs* Ugh... I've been spending the morning watching creepy AMV's on Youtube. I'm about ready to die of boredom. I will edit later with a quote.

Nothing but Silence

2007-11-08T16:49:00.000-08:00

Ugh... Today was really kind of boring. I had Geometry which practically put me to sleep because I did it over the summer. (That won't be the last time you hear me say that...) I also had a scales test in band. It wasn't bad, I messed up maybe once on an arpeggio... But not to bad I guess. Lesse, French was disgustingly boring as usual. And then I had my lovely biology teacher. *cough* I HATE HER! *cough* I'm not even going into that, or will take me forever to explain. Anyways... I actually have quite a bit of homework, but I'm happy that it's actually the first 3 day weekend for me. (Others have been absorbed by band.) I'm a bit tired at the moment. I really don't have anything to say... *sighs* k, bye for now. =)

Saves the day!

2007-11-07T19:36:00.000-08:00

It would seem as though this morning I got sick again. I'm probably missing to much school at this point. I know I have to go back tomorrow. I mostly watched TV and did Internet stuff all day. This morning I watched mindless cartoons, then a scarry show on animal planet called Animal Cops: Houston. I had never seen it before considering that I don't watch animal planet. It was so sad, it was about different animals being abused by their owners, then the ASPCA would come to rescue them. In two cases on the episode they had to put to sleep two animals because they were in to bad a condition to save. One was a german shepord, the other a new born colt. So sad... But then there were a few pets that lived and went to good foster homes. After that was over I watched HGTV (home a gardening channel) Yes, this was how bored I was, I watched the show Mission Organization. It almost put me to sleep this was the point in time when I realized there was nothing on TV. I whipped out my notebook and surfed the internet until my sister got home from school. I wasn't really feeling better, but we had dinner, and after that I worked on a new layout for my neopets guild. I finished it after a couple hours of work. You can take a look if you want, it's shikamaru: Click here to view. Poor Asuma T~T. since then I've been chatting on AIM, and I was happy to find I got an e-mail back from my friend that moved. That sort of cheered me up. :) Right now I'm bored to death. I'm thinking about asking my mom to go rent a movie. I'm not really sure if there is anything good out, but oh well. I'm really tired too. *sigh* I'll try and post after school tomorrow.

Quote of the Day:

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on."
-Robert Frost

The Esence of Ordinary

2007-11-06T16:50:00.000-08:00

Today is my mother's actual birthday. I got her a gift card to macy's I think she'll be happy. And OMG, thank god I finally got my jacket I ordered. I was begining to worry. It's so cool too! <3 Today was so ordinary it was boring nothing happened at all. And I mean nothing! Gah I'm so bored. I need a hobby. feel free to sujest something. I did a bit of fanlisting hunting, mwhahaha! I found two new ones, Oblivion which is the coolest keyblade ever!!! and of course bleach. Yay for both! I honestly don't have much to say... so bye for now, if something exciting happens I'll edit.

[Edit]Huray, I finally found a way that I can put the song paperwalls on the blog. Yay youtube, I love you! <3

I donno why I like that song but I do. The begining is a bit wierd I know, but what ever ^_^ [/Edit]

Quote of the Day:

"Pity comes too late, turn around and face your fate!"
-The Phantom of the Opera

O Green World

2007-11-05T13:05:00.000-08:00

I forgot to mention this yesterday, I was intrested in switching insruments, currently I'm playing clarinet. Possibly the worst instrument ever! I never liked it. Too geeky for me. lol, jk. I just never really liked it. I have been thinking a while now that Marching season is over to switch to tenor Sax. I'm going to the music store sometime this week to try it out. =D I'm really excited finally an instrument I will play! It's going to be a lot heavier though. I tried my friend's alto sax this week, I was surprised by how heavy it was. I'm gonna give it a try though, wish me luck! Also today and yesterday I've been joining a couple new Fan Listings, Yondaime <3, Maximum Ride, and Mashimaro. I love them all! Hoping to join some more soon. Today I was planning on making a new layout for my mini-neo guild. I haven't done it yet... *shakes head at self*. I took some random pictures of things around my room/house to put up just to give a feel of me... but I'm not sure how to transfer then from my cellphone to the computer. 0_o I've finally got them though. Here you go, click on the thumbnail to see the whole pictures.

Depending on what browser you are usiong and how fast it is the big picture might load faster. I donno why I just felt like putting that up there, I'm so wierd. They're sucky pictures though. =( Sorry. Anyways, I better get going... I might edit later, bye for now!

Quote of the Day:
"Are you my mommy?"
-Doctor Who

Subtle Silence

2007-11-04T20:26:00.000-08:00

Sorry, I know I haven't been posting at all recently. I've been really busy, It's been one of my very worst weeks. My parents haven't been getting a long very well, and I found out one of my best friends moved. I never even got to say goodbye. I really miss her. I've e-mailed her, but she hasn't replied yet. Before I found out she had been absent for two weeks from school, and I was REALLY worried, I got a note from her... she moved, and I was the only person in school that knew. It was depressing. I really wish I could have gotten to at least say goodbye. It seems like all of my good friends move away. I've been living in the same place for the longest time... =( I've only moved once when I was three, I can't remember it. I'm really tired at the moment though. On friday there was a football game (our last) against my sister's Highschool. We won of course! Then yesterday I had the final band competition. (State). We had to get up in the morning at 4:00, then everyone was bursting with energy because we did well at prelims, I probably had more candy then I did on halloween on that day. My frieds brought bags of candy to the competition. I have no idea why... We were all on a sugar high and on finals everyone was bursting with energy. We ended up getting 6th out of 36 total bands. (Which is pretty good considering how bad we suck.) We also got a high procussion trophy, and 2nd in our AA division. (Not that most people know what that means.) Everyone was happy, we ended up getting home at around 2 in the morning. I woke up at 1 in the afternoon today. My mom went out for her birthday and I came back to read a new manga Tsubasa. (for those of you who have heard of it.) I just finished the fifth volume, I'm going to buy the next one with money from my birthday. ^_^ They are way over priced. $10.99 It's robbing me blind. I only buy them cause I like rereading them though. I also watched the new avatar this week very exciting. =) I've been sick for a couple of days now. It's been depressing. I have a cough, sneeze, Runny nose, and a soar throat. My mom says I have a tempature too. *sighs* I'm trying not to talk that much, because no one can understand what I'm saying anyways! Oh well... I'm not the happiest person in the world right now, but dipite everything, I'm not doing to bad. Sad that band is over, my friend has moved, that I'm sick, that my parents are mad at eachother, that my sisters going to collage, that I had a sad mix up with a friends early in the week, but I'm still a bit happy on the inside.

Just to let you know, I changed the music of the month. It's yellowcard, yay! I was going to do the song Paperwalls, since that is my favorite of theirs, but they didn't have it on radioblog. I chose Lights and sounds instead. In honor of The song paperwalls, I'll post the lyrics. ^.^

Paperwalls, By Yellowcard

Let's burn a hole, so we can climb out.
Of these paper walls, and this empty house.

We're the only thing that's real.

These visions we have of ten years ago,
Of stars in the sky and us down below.
In streets and east coast lines,
We kept this scene alive.

Here I am, still hold on to this,
Dream we had, won't let go of it,
Hear me now, you will never be alone.

Don't listen too close, they're words are like guns.
With bullets that fly and kill what you've won.
Some love to hate, and some tell you lies.
So lets make a toast, and kiss them goodbye.

We'll kiss them all goodbye...

Here I am, still hold on to this,
Dream we had, won't let go of it,
Hear me now, you will never be alone.

Here I stand, won't turn back again.
Won't leave you, know how hard it's been
Hear me now, you will never be alone.

Let's take what hurts, and write it all down.
On these paper walls, and this empty house.
And when our ink runs out, we'll burn it to the ground.

Here I am, still hold on to this
Dream we had, won't let go of it,
Hear me now, you will never be alone.

Here I stand, won't turn back again.
Won't leave you, know how hard it's been
Hear me now, you will never be alone.

Lyrics wise, that's probably one of my favorite songs of all time. I don't know why, it just is. Anyways I'm done for now, I should prolly go to sleep. I'll try to post tomorrow, but I'm gonna be reading, and working on layouts. :(

Quote of the Day:

"I like nonsense; it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living; it's a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. Which is what I do, and that enables you to laugh at life's realities."
-Dr. Seuss

Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights.

2007-10-31T17:12:00.000-07:00

What did I do? What did I say? What could I have done better? I'm sorry... You don't know, I never knew, but I've learned. I know you're crushed I know you're hurt let me make it up. I'm sorry... I'm sad, I'm drifting into death. I'm waiting here taunted by your memory not knowing how to live. I was mad and angry, don't take me that way. I hope you don't hate me, if you can't forgive me then just let me die. Watch me as I sting myself with pain. I don't feel it, I don't know it, I can't realize how I've done it. I'm lost, I'm dead, and I don't know what to do. What did you feel like, after I said those things. Were you like this? Maybe I should leave do you hate me, do you want me dead do you want to watch me in pain. I'm sorry, I never knew you really cared. I was wrong you were right, I'll just leave, into the blackness of not knowing, I just thought I wanted to do something for my self. I never ment it to hurt you. Let me die...

2007-10-25T16:37:00.000-07:00

Today actually wasn't that bad... It was pretty good... AND THAT SAYING SOMETHING! They moved band practice to Friday, so I have today off, hurrah! Now I'm roaming around the internet. Nothing specified for me to do at the moment, which is also quite strange usually I have a ton of things to do with my guild. Today I'll probably start by working on the site attachment... Long story it's a freewebs site for my guild. I don't neccisarly need to work on it, but I probably should I have to manga reviews to write over there. Anyway, I'm also planning to get some rp in today as well as DDR! Yay, DDR is awesome, I have super nova too! I have three actually, DDR Extreme, DDR Max 2, and super nova. They're all really good games. I don't have too much homework either... although I have a test tomorrow. *sighs* It's in global studies too. (remembers th drawing on the desk thing) -_- I'm going to have him for two years as well too. No more drawing in his class. *shudders*. I don't think I have anything to say at all. That's probably a first. Well... ttfn maybe I'll edit later.

Quote of the Day:

"You may only be one person in the world, but you may be the world to one person."

Fake Faces

2007-10-24T15:28:00.000-07:00

"Everyday we put on our fake face. So what are you waiting for, who do you want to be today? Haven't you ever lied to someone to look cool, or fit in, or maybe you just want to agree with them, so they'll like you. Haven't you done anything just to impress someone. Everyone does it. But what if your faced with something more important. What if your best friend tells you to start smoking because it's cool. What are you going to say. Most people would rip their mask off right then and there, and say no. But some people with their thick face masks can't rip it off. Soon it'll become them, and they'll never remember who they were. So why why are you wearing those clothes to look cool? Just let the spider of lies weave your fake face and where will you be then? Have fun ruining your life. So who do you want to be now?"

I have to say that was very sterotypical, sure I wrote it, but just wanted to express my thoughts. Not everyone does that, but I mean Everyone's done it once or twice. I've lied before to make myself look better. Not quite as often as a lot of people I know, but I know A LOT of people do it all the time. Anyway, maybe I should shut up now... Today ah yeah, today I was drawing on one of the desks in global studies. Let me renact what happened:

Me: drawing on the desk (I was going to erase it!)
Teacher: Approaches and stays silent for a while.
Me: Looks up, eyes widen. "Um... uh I'll erase it!"
Teacher: "You better or you'll be staying after class." Walks away
Me: Starts erasing.

Great way to start the year... I had the impulse to draw, and I was out of paper. Come on, people do it ALL the time, draw on the desk then erase it. I was caught though. *sigh* Also today I had a wicked hard parts of speech test. You're thinking: OMG, parts of speech you are a looser!!! Oh yeah, well what's the word That is in this sentace?: That is ok, you'll just have to eat asparagus instead. Oh, yeah so what is it?: Noun, Verb, Preposition, Adverd, Pronoun, Conjuction, Adjective, or Interjection? I don't remember =( *sobs* Oh well, I like Lit and Comp, our teacher is nice. =] Nothing much to say, but A week from now is a birthday! XD

Quote of the Day:

"Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."
-Anonymous

Forgotten Distain

2007-10-23T21:48:00.000-07:00

Today I had band. I got home at around 3:00, and then I had an early sectional at 4:00. I had to eat dinner in a hour, and at 3:15. That's one of the earliest dinners I've ever had. *sighs* I miss the salmon. (nvm.) So yeah, we had an hour and a half sectional, and the whole time I was in the sun, it was super hot! I couldn't believe it because the past week or two, it had been freezing. I was wearing a sweater too, so by the time band actually started I was a bit worn out, and definately baking in an oven. Then durring band it was pretty rough, but I got through it. I think our band really sucks, we need to step it up or something. There are only two weeks left of band. Believe it or not, I'm a bit sad it's been fun dispite it all. I've made a ton of friends. We still will have normal band, but I'm not so psyced about that, and I've finally got the hang of this marching thing! My birthday is next week, I'm dreding it. I still haven't told my friends about it, I'm hoping they'll forget so no gifts or balloons or any of that stuff. I know if they knew they'd try and do it for me. Only cause I did it for them. :D There are plenty of things I wanted my mom to buy me. I have a bad feeling I'll get about one of them. That's ok though, I'll just use relative's money to buy anything I want that I didn't get from my parents. One of them is an Itunes gift card. I've got like $90 of music I've been wanting to download for some time now. I know what you're thinking... Why not use livewire? My parents are afraid of downloading things, and it is said to have viruses for some people... oh well. It's my downfall since now I'll have to pay for the music. *sigh* Then there is the ultimate gift that I'll never get... photoshop! lol, in my dreams! I know she got me a ton of manga. She had me pick some out in a couple of series I've been reading. Sure, you can read 'em online for free, but I sometimes like to read them randomly. Then she baught me the first book in the twighlight series. All my friends love those books, and I have been intrested in them for some time. Right now I'm reading the Tree of Avalon series almost done with the first book. So far it's been ok, it's one of my sister's books. She has like a mini library, I just take the books I want to read from her. She is almost always the one who buys books first. Although I have a shelf or two full of books. (Mostly manga, lol!) I also have one or two "how to draw manga" books. Then I have my favorite series ever. (The Old Kingdom series by Garth Nix) and a bunch of other random books I like. Let's see my mom also ordered me a jacket online from the coolest store ever, DELiAs. The thing is they don't have that store where I live, so we order some clothes from it online. I love that place, go look at: DELiAs.com Yay that store is awesome! That's basically all I know that she's getting me. I'm afraid to know what else. The history of gifts I've gotten from her has been bad. For example last year she got me the sickest hot pink blanket. First off - What the Heck? Why would I want a blanket. Second off - WHY HOT PINK???!!! Have I said this? I can't even remember. Just how annoying that was. That really pissed me off. There were several other things that year that were really bad, but that might have been the worst. Next to the One again hot pink hawaiian flowered pillow case. I have to wonder, what does she think I do all day? Sleep? *pokes the pillow case and blanket*. I just don't get it sometimes... Hopefully this year she'll try harder, but I'm sure whatever she gets me I'll like, I'll try to have a positive attitude. I mean she is getting me something, and that's what matters. =D *looks at clock* OOOOOPPPPS! I gotta go to bed! (I have to wake up at 6 tomorrow).

Quote of the Day:

"I seriously need quotes... I have to start googling them... Help!"

New found obessions

2007-10-21T11:37:00.000-07:00

Sorry, I was not able to post for a while. You all know how I've been busy with Band. On friday we had a football game. It rained like bloody hell. Our half-time performance wasn't that bad. Although, you might be able to say it was... It rained and ruined our uniforms. My mom stayed afterwords to help clean them off. I helped out a bit too. Then Saturday was the competition. I won't explain how bad we were. We had pep talks galore after it, but we got 8th. *cringes*. Don't really want to talk about it. Today is now Monday, hurray, NOT! I feel dragged down by the evilness of the mondays. Grrr. But today something really awesome happened, so I said earlier (or did I?) That I love wearing hats. So today I was wearing my brown one. This random girl came up to me and said. "Omg, I've seen you in the halls a ton of times your hat is awesome, I'd love to get to know you!" Although that might sound creepy to some people, I think it's cool. =D Yay for my hats.

Ok, so I've been blabbering on about my life forever. I think I should answer some more questions for those of you who visit daily. (which is like NO ONE! LOL!!!):

Favorite bands:
-The Gorillaz
-Linkin Park
-Evanesence
-Yellowcard
-The Killers
-Greenday
-STYX (oh yeah go nerdyness!!!)
-Nickelback (somewhat)

Favorite animes:
-Rouroni Kenshin
-Naruto
-Prince of Tennis
-Invader Zim (some consider it anime)
-Zatch/Gash bell
-Inuyasha
-FMA

Favorite Manga:
-Naruto
-Bleach
-Shaman King
-FLCL
-D. Grayman
-Furuba (sometimes)
-FMA
-Rouroni Kenshin
-.hack
(god, the list goes on)

Favorite Video Games:
-Kingdom Hearts Series
-.hack//Infection
-Final Fantasy Series
-Zelda, Twighlight Princess
-DDR Series
-Super Smash Brothers (I pwn at that game!!!)
-Star Ocean - Till The End of Time

Favorite Food:
-Skyline Chili
-Teriyaki Chicken Burger from Red Robins
-Ramen
-Quesidillas
-Pizza

Favorite Books:
-Abhorsen
-Lirael
-Sabriel
-Ragwitch
-The Faerie Wars Series
-Max Ride Series
-Speak

Some thing you didn't know about me:
-My favorite soda in the world is Mountain Dew Code red
-I have 6 converse brand shoes
-I have blond hair 0_o (soon to be dyed)
-I don't like the name Kimberly (sorry all Kims.)

Yeah, I got nothing else. Please feel free to send me Q&A. I'll put em up here. =]

Quote of the Day:

"Go Yellowcard!"

The Path

2007-10-21T11:14:00.000-07:00

As we walk along the path I've walked along so many, but so few times I look back and look to the future. The rain is falling, and it washes me away. I'm nothing. Do I want to be here? What am I doing? I could just leave. Yet somehow in the lightest hope I know I'll remember these memories. I regret and don't regret what I've done, and what has become. I'll remember these times, but what will happen in a years time will I want it to happen again or just give up and be crushed by my fear and disconnect. Should it really matter, do I want to forget. Is my fear that scarry? Suddenly I'm back on this path, but I look around, no one is there. I am alone. I must hurry to catch up.

Um... Uh...

2007-10-19T23:37:00.000-07:00

You can't really call this a post. Just telling ppl that Today I had a football game to go to, and tomorrow I'll be gone all day at a competition. I'll try to post tomorrow, but I donno. Right now it's 11:42 PM. I have to wake up @ 7:00. I should go.... More updates later.

Muddy Relationships

2007-10-18T21:27:00.000-07:00

Today band was particularly muddy. It was sick, cause the the whole practice field smelled like cow poo. Yes, we had do it on a grass field instead of turf, cause the soccer game get's #1 Priority. *sighs* They say the reason why it smells so bad, was because that area used to be a desiganted animal part of the farm that used to be there. I probably smelt like cow shit until I showered. Every time you put your foot down the grass under you would smoosh. Ewww... Then there were the ocassional puddles. Very nasty, your whole foot would be emerged in the mud. At least 5 to six people fell down. There were a couple mud fights. It was funny. =D You could hardly call what we were doing marching, there was so much mud. There is this extremely creepy kid He keeps staring at me, he's in like five of my classes, plus Marching band. He's scarry I have reasons, but they are too long to explain. Believe me I'm not trying to be mean, but if knew him, you could probably tell. I'm not in anyway judging the book by it's cover. He's seriously creepy... I'm trying to aviod him. He sits near my group of friends at lunch. I REALLY don't want to be assosiated with him. I've know come to know him as CK = (creepy Kid). I can't actually remeber his name, plus no discoling info on people other then myself on the blog. Anyway, in helth this morning we watched another fun movie. The one we watched earlier this week was pretty good. It's called bang-bang you're dead, It's a good movie, look it up on Youtube or something. But today the movie was about an abusive couple. The guy was trying to control his girlfriend's life, and kept hitting her and stuff. The guy was psyco, and scarry, in the end he killed her when she tried to break up with him. He was put in jail though. Yay! The girl was a bit wierd too, she wasn't trying hard enough to get away from him, she thought it was like no big deal. Scarry movie... I have nothing much else say, sept for the fact that I have two tests and one quiz tomorrow. DX Very sucky I know plus there's a foot ball game tomorrow I gotta go to.

Lesee, yesterday I was proud of the fact that I finally put up the new webpage layouts for my guild. Here a quick screenshot, just because it took me forever!:

Yes, I know it's super spiffy. lol, not really, actually it's pretty bad. Oh wells. :( If you wanna see the whole layout you can visit my guild's webbie, or Clickie.

Quote of the Day:

"Hard work never killed anybody, but why take a chance?"

Happy Clams

2007-10-17T16:56:00.000-07:00

Before I go on a big trip of writing to no where, I have some stuff to say. First off, I'm excited because when I came to check on the blog today I was the 18th viewer of the day. That's awesome!! I'm so excited. Also I have gotten a couple comments. Most from my sister. The other, well, we all know who that's from *cough**cough* SALI!!!! Yah, she's a guild member. She showed me the blogger host site. Everyone visit her blog, Magical Mistakes. Say mesh sent you. It's also listed on the side bar. Go take a look, it's an awesome blog, it follows the stories of rp characters. It has ocasional real life posts too. ^_^ Go look! Yes, I am aware of the fact that this part of the post ruins the drama to come, but I just had to say the counter news. =)

Have you ever heard of the term: "As happy as a clam?" I never really got it.

Do happy clams wallow in misury?
Do they feel like helpless losers 50% of the day?
Do they sometimes cut classes?
Do happy clams keep secretes?
Do they freeze up when they are around people?
Do happy clams have small amounts of friends who aren't close?
Do they stare and get back a scowl?
Do those happy clams not want to wake up the next morning?
Do they sit at home thinking of what could be?

I'm definately not a happy clam. I never have been, why should I change now?

Quote of the Day:

"Just tell them that their wildest dreams will come true if they vote for you."
-Napoleon Dynamite

私は学校が大嫌いです

2007-10-16T15:42:00.000-07:00

Today is another jolly fun band day, let's all be happy! Some times I'm too sarcastic for even myself. I have to go quite soon, and I'm forced to eat microwaved dinner in a rush. -sighs- I also have to some homework that I have to do after I get back. Which won't be fun. *pokes title* Yay for online translations. I'm not telling what it means. I've been obessing over the Yondaime jacket I want it so very badly. *drools* must have! I'm going to buy it so I can use it for the next Anime Convention that comes. (I missed this years regertably). Next year I'm going though! I can't believe it costs $116 That's aweful!!! I must get a job. Yay for borders who hires at fifteen! I really don't feel like posting right now. Plus I'm supposed to be eating dinner. Pehaps I will edit later. (I'll probably be to tired after band, but who cares! :)

Tranquil Darkness

2007-10-15T16:29:00.000-07:00

I'm trying to post everyday, I've been online everyday, but I like to post in the evenings, sometimes I don't get on though. Sorry. Today will be random guild work for me today, members are so needy these days... lol, jk. Randomness:

A list of things I hate about myself:
1. The fact that my only hobbies are video games, Webdesign, and Reading
2. My Hair color
4. Overly shyness around people I don't know
5. My in-ability to do any sport thinkable
6. Extreme hate for 90% of things that are related to school
7. My procrastination issues

I'll come up with more later, I know it! Anyway... I have to do some homew work today. I'm putting it off. Yay! *pokes #7 on the above list*. My mom has been bothering me about doing honors. I don't want to do it at all. I've been lieing to her to make it better. I'll probably end up doing it anyways. I think I should get a life. I need something to do, all I do is sit and vagitate infront of my computer. My sister says to get involved with some other club other then anime. I tell her to bug off. Maybe I'm wrong. I'm still trying to establish things I like. So far I've got three on the list: Computer internet stuff, Reading (novels or manga), and Video games. I'm hopeless. *sobs* When I was little I loved to write. I probably still would if my grammar and spelling issues didn't get in the way. I really suck at that (if you haven't already noticed.) I honestly can't think of other things I like to do. I'm sad and pathetic. D: Help me!!! I can't play sports to save my life. I suck at all sports. I've tried desperately, it never works. Instead I play DDR! lol. What's worse is me spending time on a little blog visited by no one sobing over this. No wonder my friends call me a nerd...

Quote of the day:

"My counseler told me that what ever your doing you get better at. That means if I'm a hopeless loser dying of freakishness, I'm geting better at it!"

Omelette de fromage

2007-10-13T12:06:00.000-07:00

I know it's a bit strange how I'm posting in the morning. (This is only because I probably won't get on later). So yeah! Today is my day off. although I could've gone to the can drive for a band, I decided not to. I was tired, and wanted to sleep in for once in my life. So yeah, instead I'm sitting in front of my computer... yay! I have to eat lunch soon though if I forget it my mom will kill me. (I usually do on Saturadys.) This is only because no one is here on Saturdays, my sister goes to Orchestra, and my mom drives her. My dad... he magically disapears, so I have no one to remind me to eat. Then she wants me to clean my room or something like that... By then they'll all be back, and want to do something "family-fun oriented" so I'll have to go somewhere or do something. Which is why I am posting now. ^_^ This morning I worked on some minor ajustments to the next layout for my guild. Although some of it is fixed, it still suck. o.0 Halloween is coming up soon. I'm not going to dress up, last year I didn't, so why should I this year? It's not exactly what you call "my favorite holiday" although it is the day of my birthday, I've only had about four birthday parties in my life, none of them went very well. The last one was a surprise birthday party I had in 6th grade. I had no idea about it, and guess where my mom had it? A CRAFT STORE! I mean what's wrong with her, who wants to have a birthday party at a craft store???!!! This is why I don't tell my friends when my birthday is. Then they buy gifts for me, and say "why aren't you having a party?" ugh... I think I'll just sit at home on halloween and answer the door for little kids. That's what I did most years. (This is suposing that my friends don't try to drag me out somewhere.) My sister wan't to go trick-or-treating for unisef. It's a good cause, but Maybe she should hire a little kid to do it for her, people are much more likely to donate to small kids rather then a seventeen year old dressed in a pirate costume. (Just a thought) My icon today is also one of my favorite songs by the All American Rejects. I found it on iconator. Thought it was pretty cool... I've also been sneaking around anime graphic websites recently. Wallowing in how much better they are then me. *Is getting desperate for photoshop* when I turn fifteen I'm getting a job at Borders. Next to powels it is the best bookstore ever! They hire at fifteen too! =) Hopefully after a while of minimum wage savigns I'll have enough for it. Supposing my parents let me buy it. Yes, it's sad but true, sometimes they won't even let me buy things with my own earned money. (It's actually just my mom.) My parents think me, going on the internet is some sort of plague, and letting me buying something to support it would be like suicide for them. All I can do is hope... *sighs* The other thing that bothers me is that some of my friends at school have photoshop. They use it to get rid of red-eye or lighten up a photo. This is killing me if I had it I could use it for so much more!!!!! -sighs- I need help mentally. Another thing that pisses me off is that Itunes doesn't have any J-pop or anime music. A lot of people use limewire. You have to download it though, and it's free music, but it is said to give your computer viruses. My parents: "NO!!!!!" I feel so left out... Anyway I finished the first book of cowboy bebop it was good. I have to get the second one from the library. I recomend it, it's really funny ^-^

Quote of the Day:

"Bottle up old love, and throw it out to sea, wash it away as you cry."
-All American Rejects, My paper heart

Band... Band... and... MORE BAND!

2007-10-12T16:55:00.000-07:00

This morning my mom and I got into a large fight. Not really wanting to talk about it though. 0_o Band was ok, it seemed shorter then I thought it would. which is a great thing. I've been listening to this one song from FMA it's stuck in my head. I thought I'd put up a media link for you all, so it can get stuck in yours too! Click here. ^_^ Tell me if you like it! Right now I'm doing nothing, and I'm sorta bored I think I'll make a new banner for my guild on neopets. The Rocklee one stopped working so I'll have to remake it.I also put up a new poll and a new counter image. (I might change it back though) speaking of which the counter wasn't working yesterday. It was strange... Um, well I will edit later, right now I got nothing to say... ._.

[Edit] OMG I just read the new naruto chapter. Three words: Pain's Lizard Pwns!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's so freaking awesome. I had to put it up. I just couldn't resist!:

You know it is awesome, you know you wish you had one, you know you wish it wasn't the summon of the bad guy! 'Cause I do!!!! Omg, this is called me over-reacting. Anyways... I mostly have been online after I got back from band. At one point I fell asleep in front of my computer. Then when woken up, attempted to nap, it didn't go so well... I also joined a new fanlisting. The kenshin fanlisting. Me <3 Ken-kun! Um... I also watched the new avatar episode. Go Sokka! It was a cool episode... next week's looks funny, killer volley ball! lol. One of my other favorite shows ended. It's called doctor who, the season is over now, but check it out on veoh or youtube it's awsome! I took another one of those quizes this one for what .hack//Twilight character I am. I got Ouko, sweetness! [/Edit]

Which .hack\\twilight bracelet character are you? ~anime pics~

you are ouka! you are the toughest one of the group, the one who loves to fight, train, and battle monsters. you and mireille make an awesome team, and you love toying with shugo. your wolf form rocks (well its more like a dog form really...)
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Quote of the Day:

"Nagato's summon is so cool!!! X3"

(Title lost) Please contact if found.

2007-10-11T21:08:00.000-07:00

Hello all. It's about 9:15 where I live, so I'm a bit tired. (escepially after band) but right now I'm watching a movie/internet things. Multitasking! ^.^ Anyways, yesterday I was chatting with one of my internet friends, and we got on the topic of poems. I love to write. I can't focus on stories their too long, I can't work on one thing for that long. So I write lots of poems. I thought I'd share one. This one I wrote in 7th grade, it's about rumors, and how hurtfull they are. Not that rumors have ever hurt me, but I found a strange form of inspiration for this one. I wrote it for a book of poems I had to write five, and find five by other authors. This is probably my favoririte one I wrote out of that book.

Notes in a Basket
By: Rinkurai

"Big red basket
crammed
full
bloated
note sized papers
scribbles or secretes
notes or names
gossip or giggles

You reach in
smiling
thinking of all the gossip you'll get
just from a piece of paper
you frown
your tears well up
you pass me the note
I read it
it is a rumor
about you
I feel like crying

Big red basket
crammed
full
bloated
note sized papers
all with one thing in common
horrible
awful
inconsiderate notes
that have one rightfull place
I pick up the basket
and empty it into the trash"

It's just something I wrote. btw, I wrote this poem, not that anyone would use it, but if you do, under NO circumstances can you claim it as your own. You may quote me on it. ^_^ Steal it, and Rinku will hunt you down and kick your ass! I will be posting a couple poems through out my entries. this will apply to all of them. Ok, back to reality. Yesterday I also went to the first meeting of anime club. It was super fun!!! We watched three episodes of furuba. Since I've already read and watched it many times I spent most of the time talking with my friend about different anime we like. She told me to try Wolf's Rain, and Cowboy Bebop. So today I happened to be by the library, and picked up the first volme of cowboy bebop. (Although she had watched the anime) It's pretty cool. I will start reading them from now on. Possibly online. I like Ed! <3 She also says wolf's rain is really sad. I've heard of it, so I'll check that out too. Maybe watch it on youtube. I have awful news in the way of band. This week is our first three day weekend of the year. And on Friday (the day off) I have to go to band from 9-3:30. Isn't that awful. It's really making me unhappy. *sobs* ;_; I was talking to my same friend in health. I hate talking about depression as stated before. We had to do a roleplay about it, it was pretty funny. Any ways I guess I should get back to the movie. I will post more tomorrow.(It will probably all be about band though). lol. I have no new graphics at the moment, so Ill put up a gir blinkie I made (non-animated.)

Quote of the Day:
"Roleplays in helth should be against school rules!"

Shoot Me

2007-10-10T18:58:00.000-07:00

I'M SO SORRY I DIDN'T POST YESTERDAY! Ok, sorry just had to get that out the situation was: I didn't post before band, I was planning to afterwords. Yesterday's band situation was ridiciulous. Probably the worst day of band ever, we were all dying after words. Anyways on with the drama:

I'm dying, like a small child sitting in the corner, heart broken barfing on them selves. (Ok, maybe you didn't need to hear that...) Why? Yesterday I read some website reviews, I had done it before, but I went to one particular site (which will not be mentioned.) And it lirerally tore apart people's sites, and judged them on coding streamline layouts content and all that stuff. They critically killed every website that submitted. This makes me feel like a complete loser. I SUCK SO FREAKING BAD!!! I'm afraid. I'm seriously afraid. Of course these people who owned these site were like 20-something... or older, there was one thirteen year old. (OMG YOU ARE A BRAVE SOUL!) I'm currently fourteen. When did I start to code? When I was nine years old! That sounds really wierd I know... But, there is still hope I must: 1) Buy Photoshop. 2) Get a job so I can earn money for photoshop. 3) Read more tutorials. I can still get better!!! (hopefully) Or I could just give up that is another option. *sighs* This is called my computer depression. I would chat more but, I'm to depressed.

Blah, Blah, Blah

2007-10-08T18:32:00.000-07:00

Today was as boring as ever! I went to school, and sat through the torture. I have a lot of home work too. (I'm not very excited about doing it...) I did some french work when I got home, but fell asleep in boredom. Also today is the new Heroes episode! (I love that show!!!) I'm excited, it comes on at 9! Before then I have to study for the make-up Global studies test. I also have a french quiz to make up, I didn't find out about until today. (That will also be taken tomorrow) I have two things to study for... The list just gets longer! There are an assortment of other homework items still needed to be done. -_- Unfortunately, theis limits my time on the computer. I've been abnormally tired today, most likely because in band we did warm-up exercises for more then an hour. It makes me fall asleep normally, today I was snoring. I've gone through another phase of my unhappiness. I'm really pissed off at the moment. I just am exausted. Maybe before I study I should take a nap. That sounds REALLY good right now. I've also been having a strange obession with water now-days. I keep drinking it, it's like the only thing I will drink any more. It's strange, considering I almost never drank it before. At least it's healthier then soda. (Which my mom is completely obessed with) I hope it doesn't rub-off on me, for her soda is like coffee for most people. Ewww... Anyways, in french we did skits, (I was absent for the prep day, so I get to make it up) all I have to do is a interview with the teacher in french. Doesn't sound too bad, but considering I suck at french, it'll be brutle. I've been watching a lot of invader zim recently. (You can tell from my last post.) My favorite episode is "A Room With A Moose" I love that one, it's so funny! Also I found where you can watch some of the full episodes (they don't have it on Youtube). Go to Veoh.com.They are awesome! They've got a couple of them. I would put the actual video on the site, but it's to large. *kicks blogger* anyways, I think I gtg soon. Although I really don't want to wish me good luck on the test. (You'll know how I did by tomorrow's post...) Sorry I know this one is a bit short. No new graphics to share either. That's all for now I guess. -sighs- Who knows maybe I'll make an effort to edit this post later on tonight.

Quote of the Day:

"There should be no such thing as make-up tests."

Movie Madness

2007-10-07T11:36:00.000-07:00

I apologize for the short post yesterday. I was in a hurry, and wanted to make it quick. (Cause I was watching anime) XD Anyways, today I woke up a finished my homework... (Mostly make up work). We are going to watch another movie today. (Can't remember what it's called). Yeah, it's typical for my family to go out to the movies twice a week. We watch WAY to many. Half of them are really sucky. I'm one of those people who loves movies where characters die. Probably the worst movie I ever saw was the haunted mansion. It sucked so bad. The girl was dead, and I was happy, then they brought her back to life!!! Awful movie, never see it. -_- My family likes a lot of little kid movies, (mainly my sister and mother.) Which are both older then me! It's mostly my mom that likes watch the pixar movies... for some reason she loves those. My sister usually plays along. It annoys me since I'm the one who likes shoot-em-up movies like the Matrix. (Possibly one of my all time favorite movies). I also like movies like POTC, and some stimes I watch anime movies too. All Hiyao Miyasaki movies are worth seeing. They are the greatest! Some of them are; Princess Monoke, Totoro, Spirited Away, and Howl's Moving Castle. They are awesome!! My sister likes a verity of movies, (I'm not trying to say they only like little kid movies but yeah.) At this point I'm making no sence so I'll shut up about movies. ^_^ I've been reading a lot recently too. Right now I'm reading the third book in the "Fairy Wars" series. (It's not about fairies, don't worry). They are good. I get all of the books I read from my sister. She's obessed with books, and we both like the same types, so I just mooch off of hers. I generally like Fantasy or Science Fiction books, I usually won't read much else. Anyways, if you noticed the Icon today, it's lyrics from the linkin park song "Crawling". Here's a link to where you can listen to it: Click here Two words; GO LP!!! (My second favorite band ever) ^_^

[Edit] Hiyas again. So I went to the movie. It was um... strange. Very clieshayed. Not my type of movie at all. It was plain boring. After the movie, a spent some time online, and was forced to go grocery shopping with my mom. I thought I'd put a video in this post. Just for a first. So thiis is a funny video I found on youtube with random secnes from invader zim!

If you like it, or not feel free to leave a comment on the post. That's all for today. [/Edit]

Quote of the Day:

"Hi Floor! Make me a sandwhich!"

Eternal Weekend

2007-10-06T21:50:00.000-07:00

Today's post will be fairly quick. I just got back from going to my friend's birthday party. (We went to a movie and Red robins) it was a lot of fun. More detials on this later. Currently, it's inbetween Naruto and One piece on Cartoon network, so I gotta go to watch One piece soon. Other then that I didn't do much at all today. I spent all morning on neopets rping and such with my guild. I also spent some time playing flash games to earn NP. Today is the day of the homecoming dance so when we were out to eat we saw a ton of girls dressed up eating before they go to the dance. =( It was wierd being there. Oh well. 0_o No news in graphics for now, but I noticed some more people visting my site from the counter... YAY! I also joined another fanlisting, (LP). That's really all for today, I'll try to update more tomorrow, but I haveta do some homework, so who knows.

Quote of the Day:

"People with Iconator accounts should make Shugo Avatars."

Into the Shadows.

2007-10-05T18:24:00.000-07:00

Hurray for school!!! *voice is dripping with sarcasm* I went back to school today, so points for me! It's not that bad, just have a bit of make-up work on my hands for the weekend. In health I missed the ending for the movie we were watching ("Radio"). But I had already seen it so no big loss. It's SUCH a sad movie. Today we took notes. Oh Joy! Another amusing thing, I didn't make up the Global studies test. I'm supposed to do it next class period. Which probably means it will show up as a zero on my progress report. My grade will suffer all because I just haven't mad up the retarded test yet. Oh well... -_- Today also is homecoming game day. (In other words everyone is uber excited, and school spirit oriented.) They tell you to wear school spirit clothes, or something stupid like that. Then they have an assembly (the only good thing about it is they take time out of classes for it). It was sooooooooo boring. They went on about homecoming queens and crap like that. Do you know how much I DON'T care! My friend skipped it and read in the library... lucky. -__- They talk about how everyone should come to the game to support our school. Then they had some weird cheerleader dance performance, and that's about when I tuned out. I'm not going to the football game or the dance tomorrow. Lots of my friends are, but I think it's a waste of time. Two or three of them got asked by guys... and the others are going "with friends." All the guys at my school are weird... *shivers at the thought of them*. Yeah, plus I'm going to the movies with my friend on Saturday (it's her birthday). Normally, I would be forced to go to the game 'cause of band, but I'm still recovering so, I'm not going. I'm slightly relieved. =) Nothing much to say more about school... nothing new as of now. Except for in health today we were talking more about depression. I hate it when we talk about depression. I always feel bad, I don't know why... I never think of myself as being depressed but a lot of the times (at school) I'm unhappy. I can't help it though, at home I feel like a different person unless my parents are in a fight or they're really made at me. *sighs*

Yes, uh graphics to share, right! Today I finally hosted that Kakashi banner I was talking about earlier. Ok, I made it for no particular reason, just a time filler of boredom. I think it's pretty cool. You can see it says (c)Mesh. (Cause that's my internet alias,) or at least for neopets it is. ^_^

Is super spiffy! My friends have been bothering about making a myspace. I had been throwing around the idea for a while, and decided not to. My parent's prolly wouldn't care, but I just don't want to. I'm already addicted to the internet, I don't need any more do I? Yes the truth comes out. (Don't feel free to quote me on this): "I am addicted to the internet." I'll get over it some how. My mom thinks I should become a web designer. She says I spend so much time doing it, and love to do it that I should make it a living. Being truthful, heck I'd love to be a web designer. Only a couple of problems with this. A. I suck at it. B. It might help if they bought me nice graphics progam. LIKE PHOTOSHOP! The infamus photoshop. I want it really badly, but for now looks like my parents aren't willing to pay, so I'm settling with PSP. *sighs* Anyways, for dinner we went to sweet tomatos. They probably only have it where I live though... It's basically a buffet, stocked with veggies. Not bad, but I wasn't very hungry. The point is, me and my sister were taking pictures of eachother on our cellphones. Although they are crappy, I might use one. Who knows. Btw, two new fanlistings, LP! (Linking park) I like linkin park a lot! And uh, Zim and Gir. I was looking for just a gir one, but couldn't find it, so joined a Zim/Gir one.

Quote of the Day:

"Very Melon! Give me more!!!!"
-Zatch/Gash Bell

An Apple a Day Keeps the Doctor Away...

2007-10-04T09:29:00.000-07:00

The sickness continues, I woke up feeling bad again, I'm supposed to go to the doctor at 11:20. I skipped school again -_- It's bad, but now I have to make up a global studies test AND a playing test in band oh well... Not much to say, but I added a few things to the blog again yesterday (yes, I like adding more and more crap to the side bar) :3 I joined a Mogget fanlisting (from my favorite series eva; Sabriel, Lirael, and Abhorsen.) If you haven't read them, be sure to. Right now I'm actually loaning the first one to one of my friends, but I haven't been at school to ask her what she thinks of it. I also have band at 5:30 today, I hope I'll skip that too. :) Probably not though. In other news, I also added a counter to the side bar, to see how many people come and visit. (So far it's just been me) *cries* The good news about me skipping school today is that I don't have to listen to my retarded Bio teacher go on about nothing. *Grrrr I hate her!* Today I promise I'll put some pictures up, ok? I'm also planing on putting up a couple of my graphics durring the edit of this post too, I made some cool banners and blogs, I'll show you one now, (It's a screen shot for a blog I made when I still had my graphics site.

Yeah, my website was called Rainydays. Where did you think I got the name for the blog from? Since I shut it down, now all that's there is a page saying "This website doesn't exist". But I made a couple blogs, and a couple backgrounds... I'll post somemore later. Right now I'm still worried about that one site. I applied for the tutorialist position like a month or two ago, and they still haven't told me anything, I posted on their tag board, and sent them an e-mail, but it's no good. I probably won't get the position then. *sighs* I'm going to get on neopets for a while, so I'll edit later with some more of my graphics, (and the quote of the day).

[Edit] The doctor's office wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I hate going but I'm not one of those people who is afraid of the doctor. I went in, and for once didn't have to wait that long (possibly it was quicker 'cause I had brought my Ipod). then there was the normal routine like how I was feeling and such. They examined me and took a blood sample. This part I thought was funny: The first time they did it they poked it in me and couldn't get any blood out, LOL! They ended up doing it twice. The first time on the right arm, second on the left. (The second time it worked). They put bandaids on each arm, one side was a bugs bunny bandaid, and the other was snoopy. At this point I was feeling like a little kid again. They then said that I could go home, and come back at 2:30 where they would do some tests. So I went home, they said not to eat any food. (I WAS DIEING OF HUNGER BY THEN!) And went back at 2:30. I won't go into deatail on what they did, it might sound a bit creepy, but basically, they don't know what's wrong with me yet, and they will tell us the test reaults tonight or tomorrow. Guess that means I'm skiping band!!! ^.^

Oh, yeah, I promised graphics to show, uh, right... *fumbles* Ok, Here is a background (Made for fixed right corner) that I also made for rainyday graphics, (I also have an awesome banner I made, but I saved it on my other computer, I'll try to put it up tomorrow or something. So yeah, Tare panda:

Not sure I have much else to say right now, I joined one more fanlisting though! It's Zim and Gir. And you'll never guess, but I found an asparagus fanlisting! I'm tempted to join. (This might be my next poll)! lol.[/Edit]

Quote of the Day:

"When the sun shines, we’ll shine together Told you I'll be here forever Said I'll always be a friend Took an oath I'ma stick it out till the end"
-(From the song Umbrella)

Down in the Dumps

2007-10-03T08:37:00.000-07:00

The title says it all, this is what happened this morning when I woke up: My alarm clock went of at 6:00 as usual. I woke up feeling abnormally tired. I got up anyways, and went down stairs to eat breakfast, I ended up falling asleep on the couch... I was woken up by the sound of some sort of "new" vacuum cleaner my mom bought. (I'm still not sure if it's a vacuum or mop, but some sort of cleaning utensil...) it sounded like a blender! It was 6:45 by then, and I am supposed to be at the bus by 6:50. I just figured I would have someone drive me into school. When I got up, my stomach hurt REALLY bad. After I attempted to get ready for school, my mom forced me to stay home. It's my first day of absence. It's not like I like going to school, but I would have rather gone. We weren't doing much today though, in health we were going to finish watching the movie "Radio", (that movie is so sad) I didn't cry during it though, I never cry over movies. My sister does all the time though =D. In Global studies we had a test today (that I didn't study for), that's an added plus, but I still would have rather gone. Then in Lit and Comp we have been reading the book "Speak" by Laurie Halse Anderson. It's a great book, possibly the only realistic fiction book I would ever consider good. (I'm a big Fanasy Sci-fi book fan.) I've read it before at least two times, so it's not a big loss missing that. Then my final period would be AT (Access tutorial). It's basically just a study hall period, good for getting home work done. So, I'll probably have to make up the global studies test but that's it. ^.^ I've been spending the day between my computer and my T.V. There isn't much on, soon I'll start watching Invader Zim or something online. I added a couple things to my blog yesterday. Just a song of the month. I tried to put my whole playlist on, but the coding I was used to using was being temperamental, so I couldn't embed it, maybe I'll put it up later, but for now if you want to listen to my playlist, just go here: http://www.radioblogclub.com/fav/0/2760906/0. Also I put up a quick poll, I'll try to chnage it every so often, there are two votes already! Yay! I would also LOVE it if people made a comment on my posts, if anyone visits I'd be happy to chat. You can also e-mail me. Soon I'll add a couple quick links to the side bar too. That's all for blog updates. ^-^

I'm hoping to add a picture of myself up to my profile soon, I'm just having issues picking one. I'm not very photo-genic. Some people that I met online picture me different then I really am so I thought I'd try to describe myself a bit, not sure if I can judge myself very well, but I'll try. I'm fourteen years old, and have blond hair (that I hate) I'm hoping to get it dyed dark brown. I have grayish eyes, and I'm like average height, I'd guess around 5' 6". (Just a guess.) I wear hats all the time, I have a lot of them, and wear them a ton. Um, personality wise. You won't see a lot of my personality around other people a lot in my blog, because my thoughts are different then how I act around people I know. When I don't know people I'm really shy. I can't help it, I don't talk at all! I don't know why, it's just that way for me. Around my friends and family, I'm a complete different person. I talk a lot, and try to be nice. I'm a bit sarcastic at times, and sometimes I made harmful jokes. (Sorry). I try to avoid conflict with friends, but sometimes I can be moody, and I get upset. A lot of the times, I have thought's much differently then how I act, as bad as it sounds, I'm always thinking negatively. I just am unhappy a lot, and I try to hide it from people, I just don't know how they'll think of me.

[Edit] More fun news; I added a section for fanlistings I have joined. So far there is Hanatarou Yamada, my absolute favorite character from Bleach, and Kakashi Hatake, my favorite character from Naruto. I might join more later, but for now that's it. I also put up a new link on the quick links to my friend's blog. (An internet friend I met at the guild) So go and check her blog out, it's really cool!

After I posted this afternoon, I ate lunch, and slept for two hours. (I know, it's a record! I've never napped for that long!!!) I really needed it too, I'm starting to get better though. =D My sister came home at around 2:50, and I flipped though the channels, I had never in my life seen the show Doctor Phil, but My mom started watching it, and it was about some creepy psycho mom trying to control her daughter's life. (it was scary) *shivers*. I really need to find something to do though, as of now I'm sitting around playing neopets, and surfing the internet... I'll probably go back to school tomorrow though. I took a quiz to see what bleach character I was. *sobs at the results*:

What Bleach Character Are You? Hosted by theOtaku.com: Anime. Done right.[/Edit]

Quote of the Day:

"Those 'Which character are you?' quizzes lie!!!"

My First Real Post

2007-10-02T15:58:00.000-07:00

Allo again people, I made my profile, and maybe I'll put I picture of myself up there soon... or not, It depends... Also letting you know every post I make I will also put up the quote of the day! ^_^

Band... oh yeah it sucks. Did I want to join? No way! My parents said they both did it in high school, and that it would be oodles of fun! (complete sarcasim btw...) I never wanted to, I always wanted to take a computer class like web design instead. (It probably would have been an easy "A" class from me though since I'm skilled in the ways of HTML and CSS.) Getting back to the point... band is awful. We practice every tuesday and thursday after school for three hours! (We are talking about marching band here if you didn't know). I regret giving into my parent's will. We had a competition last week... boy did we suck. Our band got 6th out of 16 bands. It was depressing too, since the whole thing took up all of Saturday. (My sob story I know...) I have to go to practice today. We are learning new sets of drill. (Oh boy!) Drill, it just strikes fear into the hearts of small children. The only nice thing about band is that I made friends. (Only two. They are very nice though.) There is this one girl in the clarinet section that I can't stand though. She drives me insane! I won't go into deatail, but gosh, I hate her!!! (She's stuck up, annoying and thinks she's the best in the world). *Zips lips* Sorry, that just slipped out. heh...

Today was an "A" day for me. That means I had Geometry, Band, French, and Biology. The day was average, and sucky, as is every day of my life. My Geometry teacher is scarey. He's like 20-something, so I suppose he's new to teaching, but he has this freaky obession with Unicorns he has this shirt (you know one of those shirts that you see vender stand where they can customize a shirt for you) It has a chibi unicorn on it. (No joke)! I'm a little concerned. He didn't seem like a bad teacher at first, but... I'm not so sure now. He also has a unicorn and kitten poster on his classroom wall, (it's framed). We've asked him about it... He said maybe he'll tell us about it later in the year... -sigh- I think it's some sort of inside joke. My Biology teacher is another issue. I just can't stand her. She has this sickening accent, I think it's canadian and sweedish mixed together. It burns my ears listening to her talk. Ugggghhh... She's also super mean, and doesn't teach us a thing actually related to Biology. The worst part is she pretends like she knows what she's doing, and has done it a billion times before. (She's another one of the new teachers). I will tell more about my hate for her as the year goes on....

I play neopets. <- Yes, I know I'm a freak. Hard to admit but true. It's a alittle kids game, so what, it also is great for graphic design outlets. I own a guild on it (It's naruto themed) we role play too. (Online roleplay you must think I'm a geek!) Yes, I know how nerdy it is, it is fun at times. I get on neopets everyday to check on my guild, and chat with members. My user name is Mesh_bag, and on neopets I am known as Mesh. As of now Legend of the ninja! (LOTN!) ((The name of the guild)) has 65 members! WoOtNeSs! It's fun, and I like makeing new layouts for it, currently the one we have up is Kakashi; here's a screen shot:

Like it? I made it a while ago, I made a newer one that will go up on the 15th, but it's tsunade. Sorry, I can ramble a lot a bout my internet things. You should seriously stop by the guild. http://www.neopets.com/guilds/guild.phtml?id=2741070 ^_^ Maybe join if you have a neo account and like naruto. That's all for today, post again tomorrow!

Quote of the day:

"If you plan on ever becoming a biology teacher, don't let your students suffer through annoying accents. "

Half Insanity

2007-10-02T15:19:00.000-07:00

Basic get to know me Q&A:

1) Who are you? A: My name is Rinkurai (Rinku for short) ^.^
2) What the heck is the point of this blog? A: Ummmm..... Good question. I made it cause I needed like an online journal no ones actually gonna read it *laughes* (I hope not)
3) What's with the title? A: I am an anime junkee, and I used to have an anime graphics site called rainy days. (I just reused the title...)
4) Where do you live? A: Do you really need to know?! If you want any info on me look at my profile. (Which is stil under construction).
5) What is your favorite anime? A: I have a lot. I read more mange then I watch anime a couple would be; Naruto, Bleach, Inuyasha, FMA, One Piece, Zatch Bell (although it is claimed to be retarded by one of my friends), .hack, Shaman King, D. Grayman, Furuba, and Rouroni Kenshin. (The list could go on forever...)
6) Anime is stupid, you are a freak. A: First of that isn't a question. Second, then why are you reading this?! Am I the freak or are you?
7) Why did you make a blog in the first place? A: I felt like it... As I post you'll get to know me better, and what I have to say... about my friends, school, and anything else in general, as stated before, it's like my online journal, don't read if you don't want to... I'd probably be bored to death if I was some random person reading this.

That's all for now on the Q&A. You can find out more about me at my profile (as soon as I make one) so yeah, rainydays is just like my online bloggy journal thing. =D You'll probably hear a lot about my school, friends, and teachers, I'm also very internet oriented, I'm online A LOT! I will try to post almost every day too. ^_^ Also I'll appologize in advance, I have typo issues, I type quite fast, and it messes me up on spelling or grammar just try to ignore it. (It's hard to believe I'm a freshman in HS with my writing issues... lol.) I will write an official entry soon, just giving a run down on what the hell this is...